Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what your life was like before you died.

Nekesha Burrell 0:08
One month being into New York, when I had these dreams, New York is calling, so I'm there. So that morning, I was pretty perturbed with, God. I was very angry like, Okay, I heeded to the call. I'm now in New York. Now what? And I was very angry, in a sense, and I was thinking about, what's my identity? What do I do? I'm no longer an entrepreneur, so tell me what to do. So I went to take a shower, and I think everything that could happen would never happen was going through my mind, and I felt this tickle in my throat, just a tickle. And I just thought, Okay, I'm going to clear my throat. That was it. And I went to clear my throat, and in that moment, no breath. I don't know who cut it off. I'm still trying to find who did it, but my breath cut off, and I went into, I don't know, fright of light. I'm trying to figure out, why am I not catching my breath? And I'm in the shower, and I have nobody to call for help. So I remember one moment I pulled the shower curtains down and there was no breath coming. And in that moment, the weirdest things happen within these few seconds, I mind you, but to fast forward to that moment I remember, I'm still trying to gasp for breath, and I had this moment, a very silent moment, when I thought to myself, Okay, I'm gonna die, because it's not coming back, no matter what I do. And the last thought I remember I had within my own mind, I was disgusted at myself. I was like, your family is going to come back. They're going to find you. Know, find you naked on the damn floor. That's what I thought. And I don't know when I left this physicality, but I know I was that upset with myself. And within the next moment I remember, I was in this white space. It's not a white room. I've tried to replicate white, that white, but it doesn't exist here. But I was in this white space. And the moment I was to think, where am I, I saw the apparition of my grandmother appear in front of me. And now that I think about it, I think she appeared there, because it would probably scare the bejeebies out of me if it was anything else that I saw first. And it was like, as soon as I was to think about something, I would receive the answer. So I had this thought, Where am I? And the moment I was to think about that, all of a sudden, around me, in this whiteness, all these light orbs just started to populate around me. And the weird thing for me is, before my NDE I didn't know the names of all angels. I knew Michael Raphael, the usual ones. But as the light orbs are populating, and I have this, oh my gosh, these are the angels. And I'm naming angels, Ariel, honeyel, and I'm like, Oh my gosh, those are angels names, and they were just populating around me. And within that moment, I realized, oh my gosh, I'm home. I just had this moment, I'm home, and it felt, it really felt like a welcome party. It just felt like, well done, well done. Okay, you're back. However, I'm kind of observing where I am, and immediately it's I now call it downloads. Then I had no clue what the verbiage was for it, but I'm seeing these probabilities of Earth, and as if I'm seeing our choices that we make to go to Earth. And I'm just enjoying this space. My grandmother is there, and it's like she's feeding me with information. As soon as I was thinking, what am I doing here? Why am I here? And it's like your home. This is where light is. This is where love began. And I remember on my left, I glanced over there, and when I did, I could see these angels. And the angels that I'm seeing on the left, they had the apparition of what I thought angels would look like with the wings and all of that. That's what I saw on the other side. But what caught my attention was I was seeing just like a rainbow of colors flowing from then to some other beings. And I thought to myself, Oh my gosh, those are the souls who came to the light. And the moment I had that thought, I was like, So what are they doing? And my grandmother was still there, and I had this thought, so what happened to those who don't come to the light? And immediately I'm just flooded with this knowing Okay, on your exit. And the way they showed it to me is it's kind of cool, because they show me the living experience is like walking on sand. So I always love that. So while you walk on the sand, your death experience is walking on sand, and when the death exit comes, you step into the infinite waters of life. So you expand. However, when you get to that point, you have a choice. Also, as a spirit, do you go to the light, or do you not? And I thought to myself, so what happened to those who are left behind? And they showed me their spirits who change forms and they don't realize that they're dead. So they're the ones who really not going to the light, and they're also those who live life less than cordially, you know, they kind of spit a lot of darkness. They are atrocious. They are the, you know, the victimizers. And anyway, I kind of digress from there. And in front of me there was this huge doorway without a door, because it's just this huge archway. And when I focused beyond it, it was this beautiful Crystal City. It was nothing but crystals.

Nekesha Burrell 4:40
And I could see over to the left side, like this beautiful waterfall. And I so wanted to go there. It was like was drawing me in. And immediately, when I was thinking, Okay, I'm gonna go there, my grandmother appeared again. But immediately, on my right, this huge angel appeared. Now this is the way I expect an angel to be huge and massive on my. Right? And immediately, when I perceived it, it was Archangel Raphael. And I just knew that it was Raphael. And in the moment, I thought to my god, oh my gosh, Raphael, I started to see these. I call them imprints of my pre birth journey. And after I was born, when I had my first accident as a child, and I went to the hospital, and Raphael was showing me, that was me there, and that was me. Then I realized, oh my gosh, you're my main guide. And while I was there, I was seeing flashes of decisions I made in my life. Let's say I was judging myself. I was like, you could have been kind of there, and these flashes just kept coming. I was like, why didn't you choose to do that? I had decisions that I wanted to make in life that I didn't I was seeing these flashes, and I was judging myself, and nobody else around me was judging me. It was just me. And I was feeling a little bit perturbed in that moment, I'm seeing a replay of everything that I did in my life, every thought I had, and I was judging myself terribly. And I think Raphael kind of took me out of that focus. And it's as if I knew that I needed to go into a another space to buy right? And as soon as I was to think it, I'm there now in this room or space. I don't know what to call it, because it's like infinite. It felt as if I was in a beehive. That's the only way I can describe it in human words. It seemed as if there were infinite amount of honey pots, and they were golden, and they were like pulsating like this. As soon as I was to think, what are those? I got the understanding that these are the memories a lifetime of every single human being. And then one popped out, and I knew, Oh my gosh, that's mine. And I remember Rafael allowed me to know you're going to focus on three things in your life, just three segments, three scenes. And the first one that came out, this I saw I was five years old. I remember that, and I was in this red dress. But what I found interestingly was I wasn't feeling how I felt. My sister was getting me, you know, she's getting me ready for something. I have no idea what it was, but I was feeling how she felt. She's the first one. I'm the last out of four, so she has years on me. And I'm always the one who's tit for tatting. I'm the one in the family is always chatting. Everyone's always telling me to shut up, and I'm always arguing back with her, would you just be a sister for a moment? Stop being a mother. Already have a mother. So I'm always having this relationship with her. You can't just chill out. So within this moment, I realized that she had a thought when she was getting me ready in this pretty red dress, and I heard her thought, and she said, I will protect you forever. And I thought to myself, Why are you saying that? And what happened that was amazing. I was taken back to her child when she was a little bit older than I was, and they allowed me to see her experience in something as a child that a child really shouldn't experience. And what they allowed me to see was that night, when that happened to her, she had a prayer to God, and she said, God, because at the time, she had two brothers, but she had this prayer, and she said, if you just give me a sister, I promise I'll protect her forever. And in that moment, I just felt this unconditional love from her, and I realized, oh my gosh, she really does love me like because all my life, I always thought that she felt annoyed that she had this little itty bitty thing she had to take care of, right? And that went away. And then I had this second review. The second one that came up. I was in high school in Jamaica. It was Valentine's Day, and there was this guy that really liked me, and he brought a rose to me. But man, I was embarrassed. I was what Jamaican would call fool for a picnic. I didn't know how to accept gifts. I was embarrassed. I wanted it, but if he had given it to me, probably in a quiet round a corner, I would have taken it, but I was flat out embarrassed, and I refused it, but they allowed me to feel how he felt. And he was torn. It tore him up. And the moment I started to feel how he felt, I was judging myself again. And all of a sudden, this light orb just came out of nowhere. And this one wasn't white, it was just beautiful, colorful light orb. And as soon as it appeared, I just had this moment, oh my gosh, that's his soul. And for that moment, I think they gave me the opportunity to say sorry or, I don't know, I didn't say anything, but I felt a little bit lighter indeed when I came back. I tried to find this guy so hard, because I really wanted to say, I'm sorry, and when I checked out, they told me he had passed away years before. So it floored me. I realized, oh my gosh. Thank you so much. You gave me the opportunity to really say sorry to his soul, in a sense, and that went away, and I was living. And the third one came up, and I was still in Jamaica in my 20s, and I was at the supermarket, and I was behind the older lady, and there was a long line behind me, and they were getting frustrated. So was I a little bit. And I started to observe her, because I wasn't sure what was happening. So I could see her putting things back and asking the teller to check putting things. And I realized, oh my gosh, she can't pay for everything. So she's like, trying to choose, what can I do without? What can I, you know, what do I need to take? And without saying anything to anyone, I leaned over to the teller, and I said, let her take everything. I'll pay the bill. When she turned to me, she was happy. And I remember she held my hand like this. She said to me, thank you so much. Thank you so much. And I remember I said to her, God works in mysterious ways. But what Rafael allowed me to feel is that day she gave me something. It's an exchange of love, of consciousness, of grace, of kindness, and it leaves something with you, although you gave them something. And I felt that that day. My gosh, she gave me something, but not only that, and they allowed me to see this lady saying a prayer to God. I don't know how I'm going to feed my children, but I know you. I know you'll find a way. And what they allowed me to witness was that act of kindness, and in that moment, all I could hear on me was that and they uttered boots on the ground. It concreted her faith in her prayer, and not just that. They showed me that next door there were three other children who were fed from the grocery she brought home. They showed me she had two children, one girl, one boy, and she told them this story, and it also concreted their faith in humanity. And it almost took me forward again to show that her daughter, just her daughter, from that one story, chose now as an adult to pay it forward because of that one story, and that went away, and I was outside of that room, and I was just in this space, and I'm just getting all these downloads, and they're showing me people, call them predictions, but my grandmother told me their probabilities, and they're showing me the choices of humanities gone by and the choices that they made that cause, let's say, a cataclysmic effect on this planet. I remember my grandmother said, Yo, we keep waiting for a savior, but the Savior is waiting on us to act out by our choices. How do we want to experience this world? And I'm just seeing these probabilities and these downloads. And then I realized, oh my gosh, we have a chance this time to make it right. And I realized we're so much on a beautiful trajectory, despite all the predictions that really are probabilities. Because what my guide said to me is, every time you have a prediction, don't hone into fear of the prediction. And then all of a sudden I'm focusing on this Crystal City, because I really wanted to go there. As soon as I started to think of it, gosh, I would like to know what's there. My grandmother appeared again, and she said, It's time to go. And I was like, go where? And I know if she given me a chance, she didn't give me a chance. If she did, I would have argued to stay. But before I could think of anything else, I'm in this dark space. In this dark space, I had this knowing this is where all creation started. So whatever I'm thinking here, it's been manifested. Whatever I'm thinking here begins to be created, in a sense. So I was in this space, and as soon as I was to think, what is this? Why am I here? I could see as if somebody, something, just pricked the darkness with a pin, you know what I mean, a very fine light. And then it started to spread. And as soon as this light started spreading, I was focusing on it. I had this I could start to feel my physical body again. And I was feeling my body more and more, and I didn't want to move because I thought to myself, damn it, I'm back. I'm back. And the first thing that hit me like a ton of bricks was fear. I was like, Oh my gosh, and I don't want to move, because I want to hold on to this feeling, because this feeling that I'm feeling, I've never felt it before, and I'm just there. I'm just there, and I don't want to let go of it. And I had this fearful thought for a minute, like, oh my gosh, did I just see angels and I saw my dead grandmother, and, oh my gosh, did I just see the possibilities and all the probabilities of Earth? And all of a sudden I had this breath, and it felt as if something breathed me, because and I had this loving Oh my gosh. That's not air, that's consciousness I'm breathing. So I'm always connected to source, and I just had this love and everything just flooded back to me. I was like, Oh my gosh, I did. I went on the other side, and there is no death and oh my gosh, we are only going to more end. And I realized, oh my gosh, but we're here for a reason. We're here on an assignment. We choose how we experience this beautiful life and everything that we say, having no fear for atomic energies. We don't have any fear of anything outside of ourselves, because we are the light and within this world, be the love. Be the light.