Had Profound NDE & Met Archangel Raphael with Nekesha Burrell

Alex Ferrari 0:00
How did you die? You just said air to stop.

Nekesha Burrell 0:02
My throat just locked off, and I couldn't get breath before my NDE. I didn't know the names of all angels, huge and massive on my right, and immediately, when I perceived it was Archangel Raphael, I was judging myself. I was like, you could have been kind of there, and these flashes just kept coming. I was like, why didn't you choose to do that? I had decisions that I wanted to make in life that I didn't.

Alex Ferrari 0:29
Now, before we jump into this episode, if this conversation resonates with you, please like subscribe and share this with whoever you feel that needs to hear it. Your support helps us keep bringing this information out into the world and helps us awaken this planet. Thank you. I'd like to welcome to the show, Nekesha Burrell, how you doing Nekesha?

Nekesha Burrell 1:11
I'm doing so fine, especially now that you are on the other side of the screen for me.

Alex Ferrari 1:18
Thank you so much. Thank you so much for being here, you have a very exciting and interesting death.

Nekesha Burrell 1:29
Say the least, yeah, say the least.

Alex Ferrari 1:32
You know, normal, normally, you know, and normal company, you would people would be shocked by this stuff, but you and me are old hat at this at this point. So you died, you know, and you came back, yada yada yada. How did it go? But let's, let's, let's go. Let's take it back to right before. Can you take us back to the moment in that shower when you realize you are you might die. So can you tell us what ramped up to that moment in the shower, and how do you got there?

Nekesha Burrell 2:01
I just took this call step back a little bit. I was in Jamaica. I was living at the time right after covid, when I had no idea who I was anymore. So I was trying to discover this person. I had no idea who it was because my company closed down. So it was one month being into New York when I had these dreams. New York is calling, so I'm there. So that morning, I was pretty perturbed with, God. I was very angry, like, Okay, I headed to the call. I'm now in New York. Now what? And I was very angry, in a sense, and I was thinking about, what's my identity? What do I do? I'm no longer an entrepreneur, so tell me what to do. And I everyone in my family had left, because they're living here. So they have their lives, I don't, and I felt very bad about that that morning, so I went to take a shower, and I think everything that could happen would never happen was going through my mind, and I felt this tickle in my throat, just a tickle. And I just thought, Okay, I'm going to clear my throat. That was it. And I went to clear my throat, and in that moment, no breath. I don't know who cut it off. I'm still trying to find who did it, but my breath cut off, and I went into, I don't know, fright of light, and I was in a hissy fit, because I'm trying to figure out, why am I not catching my breath? And I'm in the shower, and I have nobody to call for help. So I remember one moment I pulled the shower curtains down and there was no breath coming. And in that moment, the weirdest things happen within these few seconds. I mind you, but to fast forward to that moment, I remember I'm still trying to gasp for breath, and I had this moment, a very silent moment, when I thought to myself, Okay, I'm gonna die because it's not coming back no matter what I do. And the last thought I remember, I had within my own mind, I was disgusted at myself. I was like, your family is going to come back. They're going to find you naked on the damn floor. That's what I thought. And I don't know when I left this physicality, but I know I was that upset with myself. And within the next moment I remember, I was in this white space. It's not a white room. I've tried to replicate white, that white, but it doesn't exist here. But I was in this white space. And the moment I was to think, where am I? I saw the apparition of my grandmother appear in front of me. And now that I think about it, I think she appeared there, because it would probably scare the bejeebies out of me if it was anything else that I saw first. And it was like, as soon as I was to think about something, I would receive the answer. So I had this thought, Where am I? And the moment I was to think about that, all of a sudden around me, in this whiteness, all these light orbs just started to populate around me. And the weird thing for me is, before my NDE, I didn't know the names of all angels. I knew Michael, Raphael, the usual ones, but exactly, and while I'm in this space, it was like these lightworms are populated. And I have this note, oh my gosh, these are the. Jewels, and I'm naming angels, Ariel, honeyel, and I'm like, Oh my gosh, those are angels names, and they were just populating around me. And within that moment, I realized, oh my gosh, I'm home. I just had this moment, I'm home, and it felt, it really felt like a welcome party. It just felt like, well done, well done. Okay, you're back. However, I'm kind of observing where I am, and immediately it's I now call it downloads. Then I had no clue what the verbiage was for it, but I'm seeing these probabilities of Earth, and as if I'm seeing our choices that we make to go to Earth. And I'm just enjoying this space. My grandmother is there, and it's like she's feeding me with information. As soon as I was think, what am I doing here? Why am I here? And it's like your home. This is where light is. This is where love began. And I remember just like it just happened. Now on my left, I remember I glanced over there, and when I did, I could see these angels. And the angels that I'm seeing on the left, they had the apparition of what I thought angels would do, like with the wings and all of that. That's what I saw on the other side. But what caught my attention was I was seeing just like a rainbow of colors flowing from then to some other beings. And I thought to myself, Oh my gosh, those are the souls who came to the light. And the moment I had that thought, I was like, So what are they doing? And I heard spiritual rehab, and I thought to myself, Oh my gosh. So they are working out their stuff, you know, whatever their stuff are. And my grandmother was still there, and I had this thought, so what happened to those who don't come to the light? And immediately I'm just flooded with this knowing okay on your exit. And the way they showed it to me is it's kind of cool, because they show me the living experience is like walking on sand. So I always love that. So while you walk on the sand, your death experience is walking on sand, and when the death exit comes, you step into the infinite waters of life. So you expand. However, when you get to that point, you have a choice also, as a spirit, do you go to the light, or do you not? And I thought to myself, so what happened to those who are left behind? And they showed me their spirits who change forms and they don't realize that they're dead. So they're the ones who they're not going to the light, and they're also those who live life less than cordially. You know, they kind of spit a lot of darkness. They are atrocious. They are the, you know, the victimizers. And the moment you change forms to spirit, when you step into the infinite life of waters, they show me, you remember and you know every decision that you made and how it affected the world. And those spirits, when they are hit with that is like being hit with a ton of bricks, because you're hit with your own truth, and you realize these are the effects that I cause from my choices, and the light is always there for them to choose. Okay, you have ended this expression of life. Now you have a choice to come and then you can deal with what you did, but most of them feel so ashamed, because immediately you feel unconditional love, a love you never really felt or rediscovered while you were living. And those souls also choose not to go because they're ashamed. They don't know, oh my gosh, can I face all there is with everything that I made? So they have a choice, and they can linger as long as they want to, but the light the doorway is always open for them to come. Do you understand? And within that moment, I thought to myself, Oh my gosh. I didn't know that there was so much, you know, choices you have, even in the death process. Anyway, I kind of digress from there, and in front of me there was this huge doorway without a door, because it's just this huge archway. And when I focus beyond it, it was this beautiful Crystal City. It was nothing but crystals. And I could see over to the left side, like just beautiful waterfalls. And I so wanted to go there. It was, like it was drawing me in. And immediately, when I was thinking, Okay, I'm going to go there, my grandmother appeared again. Now I know that if I had went there, I wouldn't have come back, but it was so nice seeing there. But immediately on my right, this huge angel appeared. Now this is the way I expect an angel to be huge and massive on my right, and immediately, when I perceived it was Archangel Raphael, and I just knew that it was Raphael. And in the moment, I thought to my god, oh my gosh, Raphael, I started to see these. I call them imprints of my pre birth journey. And after I was born, when I had my first accident as a child, and I went to the hospital, and Raphael was showing me. That was me there, and that was me. Then I realized, oh my gosh, you're my main guide. So it was taking me through all these clips in my life, of things that happened, things that I I said to myself, Oh my gosh, I can't believe I didn't die. It's because of this angel and this team that I had that I didn't know about before. And while I was there, I was seeing. Flashes of decisions I made in my life, let's say, and Alex, I was judging myself. I was like, you could have been kind of there, and these flashes just kept coming. I was like, why didn't you choose to do that? I had decisions that I wanted to make in life that I didn't, and I said a lot of yeses instead of nos. And I was seeing these flashes, and I was judging myself, and nobody else around me was judging me. It was just me. And I was feeling a little bit perturbed in that moment say, why weren't you kind of, why didn't you just give that $1 and I was just going through the flashes, and just like I'm seeing a replay of everything that I did in my life, every thought I had, and I was judging myself terribly. And I think Raphael kind of took me out of that focus. And it's as if I knew that I needed to go into a another space to buy right? And as soon as I was to think it, I'm there now in this room or space. I don't know what to call it, because it's like infinite It felt as if I was in a beehive. That's the only way I can describe it in human words. It seemed as if there were infinite amount of honey pots, and they were golden, and they were like pulsating like this. And as soon as I was to think, what are those, I got the understanding that these are the memories or lifetime of every single human being. And then one popped out, and I knew, Oh my gosh, that's mine. And when it came out, I don't know how to describe it. I love to say holographic, but it kind of wasn't, but it's the best description. And I remember Raphael allowed me to know you're going to focus on three things in your life, just three segments, three scenes, and the first one that came out this, I don't know this thing came out, and it was as if I was there. And the first one I saw, I was five years old. I remember that, and I was in this red dress. But what I found interestingly was I wasn't feeling how I felt. My sister was getting me, you know, she was getting me ready for something. I have no idea what it was, but I was feeling how she felt. Now, if I should talk about my relationship with my sister, she's the first one. I'm the last out of four, so she has years on me, and I'm always the one who's tit for tatting. I'm the one in the family is always chatting. Everyone's always telling me to shut up, and I'm always arguing back with her, would you just be a sister for a moment? Stop being a mother. Already have a mother. So I'm always having this relationship with her. You can't just chill out. Let me make mistakes. And she said, No, no, no, no, no. And she's always that one, right? So within this moment, I realized that she had a thought when she was getting me ready in this pretty red dress, and I heard her thought, and she said, I will protect you forever. And I thought to myself, Why? Why? Why are you saying that? And what happened that was amazing. I was taken back to her childhood, when she was a little bit older than I was, and they allowed me to see her experience in something as a child that a child really shouldn't experience. And what they allowed me to see was that night, when that happened to her, she had a prayer to God, and she said, God, because at the time, she had two brothers, my mother was finished with having children. She was done, but she had this prayer, and she said, if you just give me a sister, I promise I'll protect her forever. And in that moment, I just felt this unconditional love from her, and I realized, oh my gosh, she really does love me like because all my life, I always thought that she felt annoyed that she had this little itty bitty thing she had to take care of, right? So within that moment, I was kind of thankful too, because I finally resolved years of me wondering, and that went away. And then I had this second review. Now I can say review, because I know what it is life review. And the second one that came up, I was in high school in Jamaica. It was Valentine's Day, and there was this guy that really liked me. I was a kid, you know, I was probably about, I don't know, maybe in seventh grade, and he brought a rose to me, but man, I was embarrassed. I was what Jamaican would call fool, fool picnic. I didn't know how to accept gifts. I I was embarrassed. I wanted it, but if he had given it to me, probably in a quiet round a corner, I would have taken it, but I was flat out embarrassed, and I refused it, but they allowed me to feel how he felt. Alex, I Okay. I have to tell this so I didn't know that something so stupid could hurt somebody so much. Oh, and he was torn. It tore him up. And the moment I started to feel how he felt, I was judging myself again. And all of a sudden, this light orb just came out of nowhere. And this one wasn't white, it was just beautiful, colorful light orb. And as soon as it appeared, I just had this moment, oh my gosh, that's his soul. And for that moment, I think they gave me the opportunity to say sorry, or, I don't know. I didn't say anything, but I felt a little bit lighter after my nd. When I came back, I tried to find this guy so hard, because I really wanted to say I'm sorry, and when I checked out, they told me he had passed away years before. So it floored me. I realized, oh my gosh, thank you so much. You gave me the opportunity to really say sorry to his soul, in a sense. And that went away, and I was living. And the third one came up, and I was still in Jamaica in my 20s, and I was at the supermarket, and I was behind the older lady, and there was a long line behind me, and they were getting frustrated. So was I a little bit, and I started to observe her, because I wasn't sure what was happening. So I could see her putting things back and asking the teller to check putting things. And I realized, oh my gosh, she can't pay for everything. So she's like, trying to choose, what can I do without? What can I, you know, what do I need to take? And without saying anything to anyone, I leaned over to the teller and I said, let her take everything I'll pay the bill. That was another silly thing that humans do, right? And the teller said it to her somehow, and she turned to me, she was happy. And I remember she held my hand like this, and what they allowed me to feel in my auntie, that when she held my hand like this, she said to me, thank you so much. Thank you so much. And I remember I said to her, God works in mysterious ways, but what Rafael allowed me to feel is that day she gave me something. When you're kind to somebody, it's not just, oh, I'm being kind, whether it's out of ego. Want people to see or just doing it, just because it's an exchange. It's an exchange of love, of consciousness, of grace, of kindness, and it leaves something with you, although you gave them something, do you understand? And I felt that that day, oh my gosh, she gave me something. But not only that, I was taken almost, let's say, the night before, and they allowed me to see this lady saying a prayer to God. I don't know how I'm going to feed my children, but I now you, I know you'll find a way. And what they allowed me to witness was that act of kindness. And in that moment, all I could hear on me was that, and they uttered, boots on the ground. And I was like, my gosh, we are boots on the ground. And they allowed me to say that one act of kindness that I chose to do, which was like the silliest thing and the easiest thing, it concreted her faith in her prayer. And not just that. They showed me that next door there were three other children who were fed from the grocery she brought home. And the third thing they showed me she had two children, one girl, one boy, and she told them this story, and it also concreted their faith in humanity, and it almost took me forward again to show that her daughter, just her daughter from that one story, chose now as an adult, to pay it forward because of that one story. And they were showing me, you don't understand. This is boots on the ground. This is the aspect of humanity. No matter how simple it is, there's nothing that you can do in this world that's too minute. Every act of kindness, every act of giving, is an exchange that allows this world to almost have a domino effect that does change the world from the moment you make a choice to do something without wanting anything in return. And that went away. And I was outside of that room, and I was just in the space Alex, and I'm just getting all these downloads, and they're showing me people, call them predictions, but my grandmother told me their probabilities, and they're showing me the choices of humanities gone by and the choices that they made that cause, let's say, a cataclysmic effect on this planet. And then the reset button is pressed, and you have an opportunity again. And then they make the same mistakes because of their own choices, not allowing themselves to understand, I am holding on to invisible chains, in a sense, invisible fear, because I have the choice to be boots on the ground, and I'm not waiting for a Savior. I remember my grandmother said, Yo, we keep waiting for a savior, but the Savior is waiting on us to act out by our choices. How do we want to experience this world? And I'm just seeing these probabilities and these downloads. And then I realized, oh my gosh, we have a chance this time to make it right, and I realized we're so much on a beautiful trajectory, despite all the predictions that really are probabilities. Because what my guide said to me is, every time you have a prediction, don't hone into fear of the prediction. Mirror that with yourself. How am I living in this life when they speak about the earthquake that's coming? What do I need to unearth in my own physical life that Gaia is mirroring to us now? What do I need to change about my choices and while I'm doing that? How do I want to experience this probability that was spoken of? Do I want to experience it in chaos, or do I want to hone down? And if we pray, let's pray. And if we meditate, Let's meditate and allow our light to diminish. How catastrophic it can be. It simply is a place maker that's placed in front of us. It's a soul test. How do you wish to experience this soul test. Do you want it to be chaotic and before everything else kind of flatlined? I remember two hands went up and they said, I think maybe I ask, or I had the thought, so what's the purpose of life? Because I'm still in myself to say it's so much craziness going on in this world, this can't just be it. And I remember these two big hands came down, and it was like the aspect of life is simply two things. Do you choose to give love or do you choose to withhold that? I thought to myself, it's too simple. No, no. Do you choose to give love first to you? Do you choose to pour into you, to choose to fill you up, to have conversations, to be in places, spaces, and making decisions that allows you to feel fulfilled and whole, and not giving away your truth and your power. Do you choose to be kind just because? Do you choose to give just because? Or do you choose to be a part of the split within this realm that is called darkness that you yourself created? Do you choose to be unkind to you, not understanding that you are already light and love, and because of that, all you see in this world is chaos and hate. And do you choose to continue to be the victim, the victimizer? Do you choose to hate and hold on to the energies that are so heavy that ripples across the aspects of this world? And I got that and so much more. And then all of a sudden I'm focusing on this Crystal City, because I really wanted to go there. And as soon as I started to think, oh my gosh, I would like to know what's there, my grandmother appeared again, and she said, It's time to go. And I was like, go where? And I know if she given me a chance, she didn't give me a chance. Alex, if she did, I would have argued to stay. But before I could think of anything else, I'm in this dark space. And it's funny to me now that I think about this dark space, because here I wasn't scared in this dark space. I had this knowing this is where all creation started. So whatever I'm thinking here, it's been manifested. Whatever I'm thinking here begins to be created, in a sense. So I was in this space. And as soon as I was to think, what is this? Why am I here? I could see as if somebody, something, just pricked the darkness with a pin. You know what I mean, a very fine light, and then it started to spread. And as soon as this light started spreading, I was focusing on it. I had this I could start to feel my physical body again. And I was feeling my body more and more, and I didn't want to move because I thought to myself, damn it, I'm back. I'm back. And the first thing that hit me like a ton of bricks was fear. I was like, Oh my gosh. And I don't want to move because I want to hold on to this feeling, because this feeling that I'm feeling. I've never felt it before, and I'm just there. I'm just there, and I don't want to let go of it. And before I went into this nd, My hubby had called me, and for some reason the phone picked up, so I'm hearing his voice on the phone in a busy fit, pump and swallow because and I'm like, Yeah, I don't need that, but I don't want to move. Don't want to let it go. And I had this fearful thought for a minute, like, oh my gosh, did I just see angels? And I saw my dead grandmother, and, oh my gosh, did I just see the possibilities and all the probabilities of Earth? And all of a sudden I had this breath, and it felt as if something breathed me, because it was just and I had this loving, oh my gosh. That's not air, that's consciousness. I'm breathing, so I'm always connected to source. And I just had this love and everything just flooded back to me. I was like, Oh my gosh, I did. I just did. I went on the other side and there is no death, and oh my gosh, we are only going to more and and I realized, oh my gosh, but we're here for a reason. We're here on an assignment. And by that time, my brother in law is coming through the door, and he's also in a panic state, and I don't want to move, and Alex, I'm naked on the damn floor, and I don't care about that. And he's coming in and said, Okay, get wrapped up. We need to go to the hospital. And I'm trying to say, wait a minute, you don't understand. I just saw Thai, because that's what I call my grandmother and the angels, and you have no idea we don't need to worry. And I'm trying to explain to him and the other one on the phone, and nobody's listening. He said, You have to go. And you know what? Hit me the first thing I could feel his fear and hit me like a ton of bricks, like, Oh my gosh. Why are you so fearful? You don't understand we don't need to be fearful. Fear is the opposite of light. You have to let it go. Don't be fearful. And even if I died, it would have been okay. And when I said that, he went into a bigger his effect, come now, and he took me to the car, and on my drive to the hospital, it was, I think that was probably my first drive being aware of life. You. I felt the air for the first time, and it was like, Oh my gosh, I'm one with you. And I was looking at the shoes, I'm one with you too. And it's like, and I'm talking, and he's getting more fearful because I'm talking these things, and he's like, yep, yep, you lost oxygen. You there's something wrong. And I went to Kings County Hospital, and I'm trying to explain to the nurse the same thing. And the more I talked, the more people became fearful. And they eventually said, Okay, you had a very bad anxiety attack. Don't ever touch another asthma pump. And I'm like, I didn't touch it. It's I didn't use it. But you know what I found out, Alex, the NDE was peanuts. It was icing on the cake. It was easy. You know what was hard? I'm back fit your name? Yeah, that was a challenge that that was what floored me. Coming back. And I'm a Jamaican girl, at me, I'm trying to explain to my Jamaican family, who's saying, Listen, I've I was brought up in the church. I had to go every Sunday. And I'm the one who's always saying, why are there so many gods? And I always been told to shut up. Don't Why is my Rastafari and friends going to hell and my friend going to church on a Sunday? I don't get it. So now my mother has probably been happy that I've haven't spoken about this in years now me as an adult telling her these things again. Oops. She says, it's the devil. It's the devil. And I said, But Mom, you don't understand I was talking to Ty your mother, it's the devil, I'm telling you. It's and it was very challenging for me, because what I did, I was kind of egotistical. I was kind of naughty in the first couple of weeks, because I wanted them to know what I knew. So I created a family group, and I was giving them my dreams, that I was getting these predictions just for them, and as they would see them come to pass, instead of making them feeling better, they were more fearful. Where you getting this information from? Why? Why? Why? And about six months after my nd, I remember I said to my guides, because after I came back from my nd, I'm getting more dreams. I'm talking to my guides now, more than ever, I'm having these connections and just knowing, knowing, knowing and feeling how people are feeling. And they're giving me these downloads, and they're telling me exactly how we can change the aspect of the earth just by choices, just by us finding our lights. I'm walking on the road, and my guides are saying to me, don't judge them. Look at them, try to see the light in them. And when you see the light, understand the shadows that they've picked up, of fear, of limitations, of everything that came down in ancestry, what society says, and they're saying, Just allow your light to shine, be the love, be the light. And I said, nobody's going to listen to me. What you talking about? Being the love, be the light. Who's going to listen? They said nobody needs to listen. Really. You just need to be you just need to be kind first to yourself. And when things happen, be an observer of it. Don't judge others for what they are going through. They're taking their own soul path. But understand that the assignment of every human being is kind of muddled into three aspects, understanding how to control your body, which your mind has everything to do with understanding how to control your emotions and understanding how to control your energy. And they taught me this, to understand the mind controls the body, but it is imprinted like this huge CPU. It holds on to everything that you've ever witnessed, ever learned, ever taught, and it becomes this beautiful, what we would call alarm system for you. It protects you because you witnessed those and you imprinted it here to say, I'm a black woman, so I may never be this thing. So I'm going to remain safe right here, and I will settle, because that's all I'm going to do. My ancestors struggle, so I need to struggle, and it's imprinted here. And every time something happens that mirrors that frequency or that thought, it takes you back to that and for me, I had a period in my life where I was abused and I imprinted it here. So I became this person who said yes when I knew I should say no, but I wanted to say yes because I wanted to fit in. I didn't want people to see my scars. And they said, until you learn to heal yourself and to see the light within you, no one will be able to see your own light. And that's your process of being boots on the ground and ushering in this beautiful, what they call Quiet Revolution, where within your heart, you start to ask these questions. I think I deserve more. I don't think that's working out for me anymore. I do have a choice. I don't need to own the aspects of what people call is, God, do you understand? And I talk about that. Is weird. My guides gave me the beautiful analogy. I remember when my mom was always volatile with me, with these conversations, don't talk to me about these things you're doing. And I remember Archangel Michael one day my mom called me about two or three years after my indeed. She said, I want to know about this thing that you're going through, because if I die, I. To know that all four of my kids are going to the light. And I said, Mom, I'm not going, yes, you're following the devil because, and I want to know, explain this to me. And in that moment, she's on the phone. And when Archangel Michael is within my being, when the essence is there, I always feel this tingle in my crown. It goes down my spine. I said to her, I said, Mom, hold on a minute. I'm getting a message. And she said, I don't hear about these things. Remember, she's a Jamaican woman, strict in faith. And I said, just give me a minute, and I'll never forget this. And this is the catalyst of what I represent, Archangel Michael. I was taking on this cloud, and I was looking at this little boy, and he was pointing onto the sky. And I thought to myself, My gosh, if he steps over, he's going to fall into Neverland. Nobody's going to be able to help him. And all of a sudden, Michael said, I don't humans choose to, always to seek for the Savior far away from them and high, but the Savior actually is within you. And he said, Look, so when I looked, I'm looking at this, I'm now earth bound, and I see this huge mansion, this beautiful white mansion. And as soon as I was to think, what's that, I was inside these doors, Alex, and all the way as far as you can look, on both sides are these beautiful golden doors. And as soon as I was to think, what's this, I was inside the first door. And when I went through the first door, it was the exact replica of my mom's church. It's an Anglican Church, so the Catholic based, and the organs are there and everything. And I was like, Oh my gosh. And Michael said, within this room, do you feel God? And I was excited. I was like, Yes, I feel God. And all of a sudden I was outside of that room, and I was in another door, and within that door, it was a different culture. Is I could smell the incense, and there were the drums beating, and it was just beautiful, with the candles lit and everything. And Michael said, within this room, do you feel God? And I said, Yes, because I did. And I came out, and there was another room, and it was more, I don't know if it's probably Indian based, because I don't understand the culture, but it was more dancing, and it was a different culture. But when he asked if I felt God in that room, I did. When I went in the fourth room, there was just this dark room, this one big table and one chair, and there was a girl sitting on it. She had her head down like this, and she was crying. And I thought to myself immediately, well, that doesn't fit, because I'm thinking, I'm going to see one religion to the other. And I had this thought. And Michael said, every human being that has a perspective of what God represents to them creates for themselves one of these rooms. And when I witnessed again to look, I see these light orbs around this girl as though she was crying, I realized, Oh, my God, those are angels. And I said, Yes, I feel God in this room. And I was outside that room and outside the door, and I was looking at the mansion. And then Michael said, Can you contain God in that mansion? And I was going to say, yes, and immediately, before I could answer, everything started to populate around this mansion. Now the trees and the valleys, and I never forget, I remember hearing the birds singing. I was like, Oh my gosh, no, I can't contain God in that mansion. And I went a little bit further, almost as if I'm going off the earth in the sand. And he said, Look. And when I looked, there are mansions just bloody populating around. And I thought to myself, My gosh, is that? How many religions we've got? And he said, Can you contain God? I thought to myself, no, do you feel God out here? And I said, Yes. And immediately, when I said that, I was further and when I was further up, I'm not seeing mansions anymore. I'm seeing planets. I'm seeing more Earth populating. Why? The best thing that I have there, it's a painting that I did trying to replicate what I saw, and it was just Earth, just populating. And Michael said, Do you feel God up here? I said, Yes. He said, Can you contain God? I said, No. And he said, Go and tell them, God is everything, everyone, everywhere, cannot be contained, cannot be owned. Do not need identification. And I'm outside of that with this big puff of cloud. And by then, my mother is there, Shani, because she's Jamaican, and she and I took the phone and I said, Mom, I have exactly what to tell you, even now, she laughs about this. And Alex, I explained to her everything that the angel just showed me, and she was quiet for the first time in all these years. Because my mother, you don't talk to her about religion without her. You're not supposed to say word. Correct yourself. That's not the right word to say. She was quiet the whole time, and she listened to everything I said, and then she just said, All right, then talk to you tomorrow. That was it. That was it. And ever since that day, she doesn't have the fear of this thing anymore. I don't know what happened. I don't know what frequency she received, but she just gets it. And ever since that day, I've never had to argue with her about anything that I'm doing. She's just comfortable with it. She doesn't ask me how I do it, but she's she would just say, Okay, so what's happening now? She actually asks these questions now, and she's okay with where I am and how she understood it. Don't ask me, but just that analogy that I gave to her, and I thought to myself, Oh my gosh. This explains so much of us trying to contain something that's uncontainable. Of us trying to strip ourselves from our own rights of understanding that we are already like we are aspects of God. No need to try to put a name on it, oh my gosh, let alone try to put it in a room. And that, for me, is something that is what the world needs to understand. Now, what the world needs to understand. We don't need to keep building these walls and separating ourselves. That's why we have so much chaos going on, that's why we don't see the other person as a mirror of ourself, and we just think they don't deserve but the minute you think somebody doesn't deserve to be here is that moment that you choose to also put darkness on yourself. So why not choose to be boots on the ground and know that this ecosystem that we lived in. It's a place for us to simply expand this ecosystem self sustains us, but we're the only ones who separate ourselves from this earth, the plants, the animals. Everybody lives within that ecosystem of understand we are self sustained, but we separate ourselves with fear and with doubt and with identity. I want to be this one thing, and I don't care what you are or what you are going to be, this ecosystem welcomes us, and that's why it's funny when I have any connections with Gaia, Gaia always says it's time for you to understand we are going through the phase of the quiet revolution. And I always say, what's that? It's a quiet, subtle whisper in your heart that says it's time. It's time for me to step out of this job that I'm doing that's completely depleting me. It's time for me to speak up my truth. It's time for me to understand that we deserve freedom, freedom of thoughts, freedom of knowing that the fear is simply an entity of darkness that does not belong with us. And in order for us to have peace on this earth, we must firstly find the peace within ourselves, and that starts here from our heart. Understanding, I am love. Oh my gosh. I'm not separated from source, universe, God, whatever you want to call it, but I am the walking example of God. Yes, you are. All these are sent masses. We speak about we love them so much we've never met them. But what about thinking that the aspect of them is in the child that you just pass on the street, or the mother with a beautiful child who's just going through a tantrum that you're judging in your mind? Energetically. Have you felt for a moment what that energy does to that child and that mother? Could you not instead choose to be within the space and say, I send support and love to that beautiful being who is a mirror of me, who has shown me a different aspect of love? Yeah, my perspective changed a whole lot coming back, because I don't see people the same way anymore.

Alex Ferrari 38:27
When you were on the other side, first of all, how did you die? You just said, air just stopped, like

Nekesha Burrell 38:32
Air just stopped. And I'm still trying to find who cut it off. That was it? It was I stopped breathing. My my throat just locked off and I couldn't get breath. And when I went to King's County, the only thing they could have said, it was a huge it was a bad anxiety attack. That was it.

Speaker 1 38:50
That's a hell of an anxiety attack.

Nekesha Burrell 38:52
You're kidding me. I just don't know it. That's all that happened. I wasn't sick before nothing happened. There was nothing wrong with me.

Alex Ferrari 39:03
When you were on the other side, you said there was a Crystal City. I've heard of this Crystal City before. What else did you see besides, like, did you What are the details? Did you see plants? Did you see animals? Did you see grass? What did you see?

Nekesha Burrell 39:16
It's like it was recreating itself. That's why I wanted to go. So I'm looking at these crystals, Crystal cities, and the lights were changing, lights that I've never seen here before, but they were pointy. But also beyond that, they were like domes, like dome apparatus, but it's like some of them. It seems as if they're crystal, but it's paved with gold. And beyond it, I could see these beautiful waterfalls. And you can know when you go through there. There's like another world, and that's just what I wanted to go to. It just, man, if that's what we're looking forward to, to go, I'm game. I'm game, Alex. It was just calling me, but it was just this beautiful space, and all you can see is just. You know, it just felt as if the city was alive, as if he's calling you. It's like it can create itself and change forms. Because I'm looking at this Crystal City. It's like it keeps expanding, expanding beyond this doorway that I'm looking through, right? You just want to go there and be one with it.

Alex Ferrari 40:16
How did you, um, when you were when you were there, did you you? So you basically went through a life review. You were instant. You were instantly there, right? You were instantly when you went to this side. It was like once you stopped breathing, you did you oversee your body? Or you just were out? No, you were just there. No, yeah. Okay, so when you were on, when you were there, you kind of get thrown into a life review, kind of it kind of, and then you, you start recognizing angels. But you said to you, we kind of raised in a by the church, so a Catholic kind of upbringing, so you knew of angels, but

Nekesha Burrell 40:53
I knew of angels, not so many, absolutely not so many.

Alex Ferrari 40:57
And you could have named them if you if,

Nekesha Burrell 41:00
Yeah, it was like, going back, you know, you're going to this high school reunion, and you remember all your old friends. That's exactly how it felt to me. It was like, Oh my gosh, so I'm here, and it was like a celebration. Finally, she's here. That's how it felt. That was amazing to me.

Alex Ferrari 41:16
And obviously nothing but love is on the field.

Nekesha Burrell 41:21
That's why I take this sacred breath so often, because every so often I do this breath that my guides taught me when I was doing the self healing, inhaling through your nose and exhaling through your mouth, and within that moment, it kind of gives me that rush that I felt back there, of the energy kind of building, building within me, kind of reminding me, oh, you're more than this body. And it gives me this imprint, just a subtle imprint of what I felt on the other side.

Alex Ferrari 41:50
Was there call what was? What was color like there? Because I've heard different. There's colors that you can't even explain here.

Nekesha Burrell 41:58
Alex, I've tried to recreate it. It doesn't exist. I came back painting, and I didn't paint before, and I'm trying to paint to paint to paint to get the colors, and I'm mixing colors, and everything is just amplified on the other side. So White is not just white that we look on. It's like white, but it's as if, if you touch it, you go into it, it's just different. Everything is amplified. The colors are just nothing that I've seen so far on this side

Alex Ferrari 42:30
Was there music?

Nekesha Burrell 42:32
Humming. I didn't hear music. I heard humming, yeah,

Alex Ferrari 42:37
Almost like a like a vibration, almost

Nekesha Burrell 42:39
It's just is humming. And when you do it on this side, if you're subtle enough, you kind of get those type of energies. It was just the most beautiful humming.

Alex Ferrari 42:50
So when you when you came back, what did you come back with? Obviously, you said you came back with painting, the ability to paint. Obviously you're at a different level. Consciously, you have a different perspective on life. This happens to most near death experiences. They go and they come back, and they're completely different people. What other abilities did you bring back? Because I've heard you say in passing that you're connecting with your guides, that you're you're getting messages this, like, are you channeling? Are you me a psychic? Like, what has come back.

Nekesha Burrell 43:21
I came back channeling Okay, and I didn't know that I was doing it. I after my nde, because of everything that I went through, I really started to shut up because I didn't want to talk about this. It was too weird. And I'm getting these predictions and dreams, and I'm doing automatic writing, and I'm getting all these information. And I remember about six months in, I was upset. I said, I don't want to keep getting these dreams, this information, because I don't know what to do with them. What am I doing with them? At the time, I had 356 followers on my YouTube, and I'm not much for video. And I remember I went through this phase, and my guide said to me, we will do your marketer. If you are the lighthouse, all you need to do is be and about a week after that, I got a call from Dick Dingus, from he's a member of IANDS, and don't Alex, I don't know how these things I don't know how these things replicate themselves. I know how they're set up. But he called me and he said, You know what your NDE was a part of our newsletter of the month, I wondering if you'd sit down with us in a meeting, a Zoom meeting with you know people who are studying, and these on that first sit down with them, Archangel Michael spoke through me. They were excited. I was freaked out. What the daylights just happened, and it just flows. And I remember that night in meditation, I was like, what was that? They said, well, it's your initiation. Prepare yourself to speak only that which is holy and true. And on my second meeting with them, Gaia came through. And I was like, Gaia is a thing that you can I didn't know. I. Didn't know that was an essence. And Gaia came through so beautifully. And then I realized, oh my gosh, if when you surrender and you allow yourself to be this empty conduit, this is the way they explain to me, you're allowing yourself to simply be an empty container, and you relax yourself and you trust and you will allow messages of holiness and truth to flow through. It will happen, and that's been happening ever since. So during those sessions with these IANDS members, then people were there, and they were talking about, probably, things happening in their life, and another guide would come through, another angel will come through and tell them, Okay, what you need to do, not telling them how to fix their lives, but giving them guidance. And I thought to myself, That's very interesting, because I don't know this person. How did I know to say that? And I just started to trust and I remember Nick said to me, one day, Nikki, you're gonna have to talk to people. You can't just do this here. And I said to myself, I'm not reaching out to anybody. Nope, absolutely not. And then it just started to duplicate. I got a call one day and an email, and then a call, and then people are asking me, we want to talk to you about this experience. And one of Dick's friends said to me, can you do a one on one with me? And I said, okay, because I have no clue what I'm doing. I don't know. And I just sat there and I allowed and messages came through for her. And I was like, that's kind of cool too, because I don't know this woman, and he's telling her information, and she's validating to say yes, yes, that's my daughter, and this is the things that yes, you're right, and thank you. And my guide said, you want to speak what is holy and true. Allow yourself to be a messenger of truth. And then I said, Okay, I bloody surrender, but I'm still not going out there to market myself. And this interview that I'm doing with you right now, I've, I've done this interview with you at least twice in my head. Don't ask me how it manifested itself. But yeah, I came back with these, and I don't want to call them abilities, because what my guide show me is every single person channels anyway, and it's beautiful. I have people sitting across the screen from me, and they're saying, What's my purpose? What am I supposed to do? And I'm like, well, you're channeling. You know, when you mix those fragrances together and you get lost in time, your guides want you to know in that time, it's not just you who's doing it. You're bringing forward beautiful essences and energies that the person who will receive it when they smell it, it brings them exactly what they need in that moment, because you're doing it from your heart, and you're allowing yourself to channel exactly what needs to go to that individual when you paint and you get lost in time, that painting that you did when the recipient receives it, it was orchestrated perfectly by your guides and theirs. Every time they look on it, they understand they're overcoming everything that you do when you get lost in time, your creative aspects, anything that you do that's like child's play that allows you to get lost in time. You're channeling you when you are doing this beautiful thing that you do, you get lost in time you stepped up to a big plate. You're channeling because you allow only what's holy and true to get out there. And those who allow themselves not to just listen, to react, allow themselves to feel the energies that comes from it all becomes their own lighthouses, because it starts to strip away these shadows that they picked up over time that said, I can't I don't deserve I must struggle. I am abused. I am all these things and all these fear when you do what you do and allow us to do what we do. It slowly starts to almost wash away the mud from people who are walking in this earth not loving other people because they just don't understand how to love themselves. They don't remember and something, some frequency, some word, a picture, whatever it is, awakens that dormant DNA, in a sense, and it allows them to almost be breathed and say, Oh my gosh. This addiction that I've been holding on to really doesn't serve me, this habit that I have, and it allows them. Finally, my guides always say, Take this 12 inch journey from your head to your heart. It's getting out of your headspace for a moment and allowing your heart to whisper loud enough to say, you deserve to live you know you are here for a purpose. Life is not hard on you. You are hard on life. So live. And it's in those moments you realize, oh my gosh, so I don't need to judge a person who's been mean and atrocious. All they asked me to do is add light to the situation. So how do I react to you who's been mean? And Mother Mary taught me this some time ago. I was having a session with a lady, and I remember Mother Mary was showing me a whole pack of. Benjamin's money. And she said, Ask her this. And I said, if you go to a store, will you take all your money and just give it to them and say, give me all those things that I absolutely detest. And the woman said, Absolutely not so. Mother. Mary said, Well, why do you just freely give away your energy currency? Do you not know that's the main currency that you need to be withholding? And she didn't understand. And she said, when, every time you say yes to something, when you know in your heart you should have said no, you give away pennies, and every time you make a choice of not pouring into yourself, oh my gosh, I I could just take five minutes break today. You say, Oh no, no, no, I have to, because I have to do this. I'm on a time slot. She says, Well, you give away hundreds within your energy currency. And she said, every time you choose to react to something, just because you are triggered, and you react to a news, whatever it is, or a conversation somebody is having, or somebody's own choice of reacting, and you input darkness within to that you gave away 1000s of your energy currency. Well, how much more do you want to give? Do you want to completely deplete yourself? And the lady was like, Absolutely not. And I love that analogy, because we forget about our energy, and we forget about how much it impacts the world, and how much everything that happens really is a soul test, no matter how atrocious and how sudden and how chaotic it is. So now you have a choice. How do I react to this situation, the chaos, the news, the propaganda, whatever it is. How do I react to it? Do I join and take sides and start to point fingers? Because when you do that, you're adding energies of darkness within it. Does it help? Or do you simply become an observer of what's happening? Say, You know what? It's very interesting that they chose to do this. But you know what? I send prayer, I send love, I send healing, whatever it is. How do you want to react to this world reflects the world that you live? So they say, if we want to see the world change, we'll start changing it by the very thoughts that you hold and buy, the things that you see and how you see people as, Oh my gosh, they're not a part of me. So I'm gonna walk around with Eyes Wide Shut, because I don't care what happens to them.

Alex Ferrari 52:12
What is, um, what does your family say about all this? Because you are apparently very public at this point with it.

Nekesha Burrell 52:19
Not everyone in my family is 100% with it, because not all the topics are things that they are used to. And it's a fear. Also it's a fear, because if I'm going to listen to these things that you're saying and acknowledge it, then I have to let go of all these things that I've learned before, and that's pretty fearful. Of course, majority of my family is okay with it, but not all of them, and it's okay because they're not ready yet. And it's not just for my family, it's for all families, and we have to gracefully have compassion for people, for where they are now, in their own soul growth. But does that mean you need to shrink your light and shut up? This girl is not shutting up anymore.

Alex Ferrari 53:01
For those who fear death, do you have any advice, or what would you like to say for them to understand what's going to happen when they pass?

Nekesha Burrell 53:09
Death has no finality to it, as much as the human physicality that we are says Death is just something that allows you to be gone, there is simply an expansion of death. Your life, the way you live it now is simply allowing yourself to walk on this beautiful, let's say beautiful beach, and just dabbing your feet in sand. And the angels would say, you have your opportunities to build as many sand castles as you want as you live this life, and you're going to find rocks on this beach, on this beautiful sand of fears and fear mongering and blood thirst and all these things that says you know what? It keeps you away from living. You are free to pick them up and experience them. Experience the heartbreak and the pain. Please don't own them. Acknowledge that it's simply something somebody threw off a stage where they had their own scenes that they played. And as you take this beautiful journey, and you choose to now step into the infinite Waters of Life, which is what we call the death, acknowledge that you step into more, but more, without the physical body to experience the emotions that you fail to balance here. So there's no finality to that. It's simply going back to source, going back to love that is so unconditional, going back to being limit less. So worry not about, oh my gosh, I'm living to die. That is a must that will come. Think about, how do I express myself while I have this physical body, to balance my body, which my mind controls, and to also balance my emotions? How do I think? How do I choose to react, and how do I also balance my energy? Right? How much do I allow myself to be guided? How much do I allow myself to see truth into every situation and not be judgmental and always remembering that the love that we seek outside of ourselves really isn't out there. It's here.

Alex Ferrari 55:15
Very, very true. Where can people find out more about you and the amazing work you're doing in the world.

Nekesha Burrell 55:21
Ah, well, I have a website now, souldeepconsciousness.love and My YouTube channel is in my name Nekesha Burrell, these are the places that you will go to see me, and you'll have an opportunity to join our very new, beautiful soul shift Academy, which is just a beautiful space for us to speak, you know, freely and not go through, you know, what we went through when we had people thinking that we're going on the dark side where we freely can learn to evolve and grow.

Alex Ferrari 55:55
That's beautiful. And do you have any final words for the audience?

Nekesha Burrell 56:04
Oh my gosh, breathe. We hyperventilate so much in this world, and we don't take a chance to pause for a moment and see what life really has there for us. Understand that no matter what's happening in your world, it does get better when you choose to, when you choose to understand that we live in a beautiful ecosystem, and no matter what chaos comes it's simply for you to reflect, to say, how do I want to experience this world? And you really do have control. It's funny. Mother Mary just places Bob Marley, song in my head. I don't know why, but it's something that's beautiful. It's emancipate yourself from mental slavery, which kind of means that you are now allowing yourself not to be confined by believing that I don't have a choice. None but ourselves can free our mind, because we are the ones who choose. We choose how we experience this beautiful life and witness everything else in ecosystem to understand that a tree doesn't complain the color of the leaf of another tree. It simply is. And everything that we say having no fear for atomic energies, we don't have any fear of anything outside of ourselves, because we are the light our own self discovery is rediscovering the light that we are, that God is with us, within every breath, every word that we speak, and within this world, be the love, be the light, and my gosh, try to be boots on the ground. That's very important,

Alex Ferrari 57:34
That is, it's been such a pleasure meeting you are. You're such a beautiful soul. I love your message. I love what you're what you're doing in the world, and thank you so much for sharing this remarkable story with all of us, and I appreciate you and everything you're doing to waken this planet. So thank you.

Nekesha Burrell 57:50
Alex, thank you. Thank you for choosing to step up to this beautiful plate and allowing these sacred conversations to happen.