Divine Encounters Episode 042 | Near-Death Experience Story
Alysa Rushton was in a corporate job she says was sucking her soul, and far sicker than anyone around her knew, when she died from an overdose of prescribed medication. In this Divine Encounters episode she tells Alex Ferrari what she says happened in what she calls God consciousness, the choice she was offered there, and the five years she spent putting her life back together.
Key Takeaways
- Alysa says years of illness, a long list of diagnoses and heavy medication led to the night her husband found her not breathing.
- She describes rising into what she calls God consciousness, where she could place her awareness in over a billion places at once.
- She says she explored galaxies and watched sacred geometry form from light, understanding things she has no way of knowing now.
- She describes visiting people she knew who struggled with addiction, in what she later read is a healing place for people who die in traumatic ways.
- A group consciousness told her she could stay, but that returning would be “the most extraordinary amount of hard work that you’ve ever faced.” She chose to come back.
- She says she spent the next five years gluing the pieces of her life back together, and now teaches people to become the divine creator of their lives.
| Guest | Alysa Rushton |
| Episode | Divine Encounters 042 |
| Before | Working in corporate America while very ill |
| What Alysa says happened | She died from an overdose of prescribed medication and her husband found her unresponsive in the bathroom |
| Where she says she went | God consciousness, a place of bliss, with sacred geometry and other galaxies |
| Who she met | She did not see friends or relatives; a group consciousness spoke to her |
| The choice | Stay in the healing place, or return to her body and do extraordinary work |
| The message | Take responsibility for your life and become its divine creator |
The Cubicle of Death
Before she died, Alysa was working in corporate America. She had recently gotten a promotion, which she jokes about as arriving at “the cubicle of death.” She had worked hard to get there, she says, but “it was sucking my soul.”
At the same time, symptoms she had carried all her life, digestive problems and others, grew too big to ignore. Early in the new job, she overheard two women whispering about whether she was anorexic or bulimic. She was very thin, she says, because she was not digesting anything. She did not yet know she was gluten intolerant, or that there were foods she shouldn’t be eating, and she didn’t know cigarettes did anything to the body besides harm the lungs.
Handing Her Health to Someone Else
As she got sicker, Alysa went to doctors. She describes handing over her health to people she thought knew much more about her body than she did. She started on what she calls the drug train: one medicine for this ailment, another for that. Before she knew it, she says, she had a laundry list of diagnoses, including MS, autoimmune arthritis, Lyme disease, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia and irritable bowel syndrome.
She ended up with a doctor who told her they had to kill what was inside of her. She had a PICC line installed and, for three years, infused medication every day, about three hours at a time. At some point she had to leave corporate America. She says she went from 95 pounds to 190 in a short span, on a drug cocktail that included steroids. She had always had a feeling she would not make it to 30. So she assumed this was it. She says she did not realize at the time that it was the medication that was damaging her body. This is her account and her view. It is not medical advice, and please talk with your own care team about your own health.
The Day She Died
On the day she died, Alysa had been infusing all day and had a reaction to one of the main medications, so they gave her extra drugs. At home, she was on strong medication for end-of-life pain management, the kind given to people who are expected to die anyway. She had an extra dose that day, and she says it was too much for her body.
That night she went to sleep, then got up, struggling, and went to the bathroom. She does not remember it. Her husband, who she was married to at the time, found her there not breathing. He thought she had had a massive stroke, because her face was sagging and her lips and nails were blue.
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Bouncing Around in God Consciousness
Meanwhile, she says, in the cosmos, she was bouncing around in God consciousness. She explored galaxies and universes and understood how the whole thing is made and formed. She says she understood quantum physics and sacred geometry, and mathematics she has no way of knowing now. And she was bathed in deep bliss and love. She calls it “the most physical thing I’ve ever done without a body.” She wonders if that is because she died of an overdose: there was a level of consciousness she was not awake to. If she had been, she thinks, she would have seen her body. She did not.
She is at pains to say that she got to the place she calls God consciousness, or perhaps what some call monad consciousness. The best way she can describe it is a TV screen like a security monitor watching thousands of cameras at once, only not like that. She could pinpoint her awareness in over a billion different places at once. If something interested her, she could pull her consciousness into it, which felt like an elastic drawing her in. It was motion and movement, consciousness in form but without physicality.
No Friends or Relatives, and a Theory About Why
She did not see friends or relatives, she says. That made sense to her, because at 30 she had no friends or relatives who had passed on, nobody to greet her. One of her theories about near-death experiences is that the consciousness you hold about death when you die is the first thing you experience. So instead of seeing people, she felt enveloped. She felt she was soaked into God consciousness at the level she could be at that moment, learning, seeing and feeling.
Some of it, she says, is hard to describe because it involved other planets and galaxies for which we do not have words. She watched sacred geometry form mathematically as consciousness came down from light and became form, form, form. She explored near and far universes. Sometimes a person or an animal caught her eye and she wanted to go into their experience, and she could do all of it at once.
An Olive-Green Sky and a Healing Place
There was one place she wanted to look at: Earth. She went down and suddenly was not in God consciousness any longer; she was in Earth. She was Alysa again, which she was not up above, where she was just consciousness. She had no body but she was there. Everything looked the same, except the sky was olive green, kind of olive drab.
She decided to check on an ex-boyfriend from when she was 14. In an instant she was at his condo, a house she had never been to, and she saw exactly what it looked like. She had not been in touch with him for years. He smoked and drank, and being near that felt comforting. She kept popping from person to person among people she knew who struggled with drug and alcohol addiction.
She did not know what this place was until years later, when she read a book by an author describing her exact experience. The author said this is a place where people go after traumatic deaths, including suicides and drug overdoses, and that it is a healing place. That fit, Alysa says. She felt she was receiving a deep healing as she moved from person to person.
The Offer and the Return
Then a group consciousness spoke to her. It told her this would be a very healing place for her, and she could stay, but “you cannot come back in the Alysa body.” If she chose to return to that body, it would take “the most extraordinary amount of hard work that you’ve ever faced.” Then it added: “But it’ll be worth it.”
The moment she thought, yes, I will go back, she was slammed into her body. She compares it to being dropped from a 1,000-foot building onto concrete. She hit it with a thud, gasping for air, in her bathroom, with about 20 EMTs and her husband kneeling beside her asking questions she could not follow.
She was given Narcan, and she says her legs were flailing and everything was going crazy. She had been using a walker, and her husband looked at her as if to say he didn’t know she could move like that. In that moment, Alysa says, she understood that what she had been doing was killing her. It was her big wake-up call, and she got it instantly.
Five Years of Gluing the Vase
The contrast was hard. Up in God consciousness, she says, she was “bathed in oodles of love and bliss,” and the bliss felt very physical, like “taking off the tightest thing you’ve ever worn.” Coming back to the intense pain of the body was difficult. But she knew she had to make a change.
The next five years, she says, were about integrating the experience of dying and getting herself off all the drugs. She calls it her break-apart moment, “my vase shattered into a million pieces,” followed by five years spent gluing the pieces back together. For more on how others describe such turning points, see our complete guide to near-death experiences.
Becoming the Divine Creator of Your Life
Alysa now teaches people to take responsibility for their lives. If your life is not going well, she says, if you feel you never catch a break or are mostly checked out and not living in “the magic and miracle zone,” you are likely in victim mode. The only way out is to take responsibility for everything, and with that comes the ability to take responsibility for healing your life.
When you put the blame outside of yourself, she says, nothing transforms. “The Universe proves your beliefs right,” she says, whether you like it or not. The lessons we come here to learn also inform consciousness above, she believes. “It’s a two way street.” She teaches people to “become the divine creator of your life” and to bring consciousness through themselves every day, even in a difficult situation, using vibration and awareness to shift outcomes.
Kindness, and a God That Is Everything
For Alysa, a good life comes down to being kind. If she can walk around radiating that feeling so that people she meets say, wow, I feel different, that is living a good life.
And God, as she sees it, is not far away. “God is every single particle and cell and amoeba in the universe,” she says. God is the computer and the earth we are sitting on. God, she says, is to expand consciousness. We share these accounts as experiences in each person’s own words, with no medical claims.
Questions to Sit With
- Alysa says she handed her health to others without asking her own body what it needed. Where in your life could you listen more closely to yourself?
- She describes blame as the thing that keeps a situation in place. Is there one place you are still holding someone else responsible?
- She defines a good life as being kind enough that people feel different around you. Who around you could use that this week?
Choose one thing you have been blaming on someone else and write one sentence that begins, what I can do about this is. Then do the smallest piece of it today.
Spiritual Takeaways
- Alysa says consciousness can be in more than one place at once, and that we are more than the body.
- She says the lessons we learn here inform consciousness above, so it is a two way street.
- She believes taking responsibility is the first step to changing a life.
- She says kindness, radiated everywhere, is what a good life looks like.
- She believes God is in every particle and cell, and that God is to expand consciousness.
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Frequently Asked Questions
Who is Alysa Rushton?
Alysa Rushton is a near-death experiencer and teacher who worked in corporate America before illness took over her life. She says she died from an overdose of prescribed medication and describes what happened next in this Divine Encounters episode.
What was Alysa Rushton’s life like before she died?
She says she was working in a corporate job that was sucking her soul while her lifelong digestive symptoms worsened. She says she then received many diagnoses and spent three years infusing medication daily through a PICC line.
What happened the day Alysa died?
She says she had extra medication in her system after a reaction during an infusion and an extra dose of strong pain medication at home. Her husband found her in the bathroom, and about 20 EMTs responded.
What is God consciousness, according to Alysa?
It is her name for the place she rose into, which some might call monad consciousness. She describes being able to place her awareness in over a billion places at once, with deep bliss and love.
Did Alysa see loved ones in her experience?
No. She says she did not see friends or relatives, partly because she had none who had passed on. She felt enveloped by God consciousness instead.
What did Alysa see on Earth?
She says she visited Earth in consciousness, where the sky was an olive green, and visited people she knew who struggled with addiction. She later read that such a place is a healing place for traumatic deaths.
What choice was Alysa given?
She says a group consciousness told her she could stay, but could not come back in her body, or she could return to it and face the most extraordinary amount of hard work, which would be worth it. The moment she chose to return, she was pulled back.
How did the experience change Alysa’s life?
She says it was a wake-up call that what she was doing was killing her. She spent five years integrating it and getting off all the drugs, and now teaches people to take responsibility for their lives.
What does Alysa mean by victim mode?
She means putting blame outside yourself. She says that as long as you do, you keep attracting more situations that prove you right, because the universe proves your beliefs right.
What is Alysa’s message about a good life?
She says a good life is being kind and radiating that so that people feel different around you. She believes God is in every particle and cell, and is about expanding consciousness.
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Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what your life was like before you died.
Alysa Rushton 0:03
I was working in corporate America, and I had recently got a promotion, I call it to the cubicle of death, and I had worked so hard to get to the great cubicle of death, but it was sucking my soul. And what started to happen is some little symptoms that I had had all my life, digestive issues and such, started to become really big and to the point where I couldn't help but do something. And in fact, I remember one of my first days after I got this promotion, I heard two of the girls whispering, Oh, do you think Alyssa is anorexic? Is she bulimic? And they're talking about me because I was so thin, because I wasn't digesting anything. I My digestion was so horrible. I didn't know I was gluten intolerant. I didn't know I had all these eating things that I couldn't be eating. I didn't know that smoking cigarettes was bad for you, other than like, it's bad for your lungs, but I had no idea it had any other impact on the body. So I started to get sicker and sicker, to the point to where I had to visit some doctors. And that journey of handing over my health to somebody else who I thought knew a whole bunch more about my body than I did, and I started on the drug train of like, well, this medicine is going to fix this ailment, and this medicine is going to fix that ailment, and before I knew it, I had a multiple laundry List of autoimmune disease diagnosis, MS, autoimmune arthritis, Lyme disease, the list for chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, the list went on and on and on and on and irritable bowel syndrome like it was just so much. So we started medicating it, and I ended up working with a doctor who was like, We gotta kill what's inside of you. And so I ended up on an IV protocol, which was I had a picc line installed. And for three years, I was infusing medication every day, basically three hour blocks a day. But somewhere in there, I had to leave corporate America. I was I got so sick, I gained so much weight from the drug cocktail, right? I went from 95 pounds of me to 190 pounds of me in a pretty fast, pretty fast time frame, because I was they put me on steroids as part of the this protocol. And I tell you what, nothing makes you crave for pints of Ben and Jerry's like steroids and what I didn't realize at the time is I just was getting sicker and sicker and sicker. And I thought, right? I thought, Oh, I'm just getting sicker and sicker and sicker. And I probably, I always thought I'm probably not gonna make it till 30. I always had that thought ever since I was young. And so I just thought, well, this is it. I'm dying, you know, and that's the way of it. I didn't, I didn't actually realize the it was the medicine that was actually killing me. It was the medicine that was, you know, really damaging my body. So the day that I actually died, you know, I had been infusing all day, and they had given me some extra drug cocktails because I had a reaction to one of the main medications that they were infusing. So I had extra drugs in my system. And then when I came home, I was on end of life pain management so think fentanyl suckers that they give to cancer patients, right? The ones that basically have a label, like I had labels all over my house that said, you know, if you're a caregiver, don't touch these, because it can kill you, just touching it. So these are things that they only give to people that are going to die anyways, because you might die while taking it. So I had an extra sucker that day, and I ended up just being too much for me. And then that night, when I went to sleep, I don't remember doing this, but I got up and I was having struggles, and I went to the bathroom. And my husband, I was married at the time, I'm no longer married, but he found me on the toilet dead. He had thought I had had a massive stroke, though, because my face was sagging, my lips were blue and my nails were blue. So meanwhile, that's back on Earth, up in the cosmos. I was bouncing around in God consciousness. I was getting to explore galaxies and universes and understand how this whole thing is made and formed. I understood quantum physics. I understood sacred geometry and mathematics that I have no way of knowing now, right? And I got to witness and see all that, plus be bathed in such deep bliss and love. And I always say it's the most physical thing I've ever done without a body. I. And I think that's because I died of a massive drug overdose, right? So there was a level of consciousness that I wasn't I think if I was awake, I would have seen the body. I didn't see that I got up to the place that's God consciousness, what I call God consciousness, or maybe some people might call it monad consciousness, and literally, the best way I can describe this is a TV screen. Have you ever seen one of those security cameras that are monitoring like 1000s of things at once? It was like that, only not like that. I could pinpoint my consciousness in over a billion different places all at once. And I could, if I saw something that interested me, I could pull my consciousness in multiple places all at once. And what was cool is I could actually go into that, and it felt like a, like an elastic bringing my consciousness in. It was a it was motion, it was movement, it was consciousness in form, but without physicality. No, I didn't see any friends or relatives. And, you know, it makes sense, because I don't have any friends or relatives that have passed on. I'm 30, so I don't have anybody that I would come to greet me on be like, Oh, it's you. And so one of my theories about near death experiences is, is the consciousness you hold when you die, about the death is the first thing you experience. And so for me, I didn't see people. I felt enveloped. What I felt like is I was actually soaked into God consciousness, or Mona consciousness, at the level that I could be at that moment, and I was bouncing around the universe and learning and seeing and feeling. So some of it's really hard to describe, because it was other galaxies. It was other planets that we don't actually have words. Some of it was like I would see sacred geometry, and I would see how it was formed mathematically, and how the consciousness would come down from light, and then form the sacred geometry, and then Form, Form, Form. So I saw all of that I was exploring, you know, near and far universes. And then some times I would, I would see this person who caught my eye, and want to go down into their experience, or see an animal. And I could, the weird part is, I could do it all at once. So I remember seeing this one place, this one place that I wanted to check out, and it was Earth. So I was really attracted to it. So I go down, I'm checking out earth. All of a sudden, instead of being in God consciousness, I am in earth. I'm here. I'm back in earth. And I realize I'm here, me, Alysa, this Alysa, because up there, I was not Alysa, by the way. I was consciousness. I was not the me ish person that I am now. Now I'm back on Earth. I'm Alysa. I look down, though, and I realize, oh, I don't have a body here, but I'm here in consciousness. And then I look around me, and I see everything looks very much the same, except the sky is olive green and kind of like this olive drab green. And I I thought, well, I'll go and check on my ex boyfriend from when I was 14. So instantly, I popped to his house. By the way, I hadn't been in touch with him for years, but I popped to this house where I had never known of him at but I saw him clearly in his condominium, and I saw exactly what it looked like, and I was kind of hanging around him. He smoked and he drank, and it felt very comforting to me, and so that's what I did. I just kind of popped around from person to person that I knew that had drug and alcohol addiction, and I didn't ever really know what this was, until years later, I read a book by Savannah arienta, and she I'm reading this book, and this woman is describing my exact experience, and because I always wondered about this experience, and what she said was, this is a place where people go from traumatic deaths, suicides and drug overdoses, and it's a healing place. And that's very much what it felt like for me, I felt like I was getting this deep healing, and I was moving around from person to person. And as I'm there, a group consciousness came to me and they said, hey, you know this is going to be a very healing place for you. And you can stay here, but you cannot come back in the Alysa body. And if you choose to come back in the Alyssa body, it's gonna be the most extraordinary amount of hard work that you've ever faced. But it'll be worth it. And as soon as I was like, Yeah, I'm gonna come back, the moment that I had that thought I got slammed back into my body. It was like someone. Dropping me off 1000 foot building and slamming me down into concrete, and I hit my body with a curse thud, and I'm gasping for air and the EMTs I'm in my bathroom now. I've got 20 EMTs in my bathroom. My husband's kneeling beside me, and they're asking me questions that I don't even know what they're saying. So back in the envelope in the hospital. Now, you gotta understand, they gave me Narcan, so I here. I am a total, you know, prescription drug addict, and I, my legs are flailing, everything's going crazy. I used a walker to get around, and my husband's kind of looking at me like, Good lord, I didn't know you could move like that. You know, in that moment, I realized what I'm doing, or what I have been doing is killing me, this, what I'm doing is killing me. And it was my big, huge wake up call. So I got it right there in an instance, and the pain differential between being up in God consciousness, bathed in oodles of love and bliss and just feeling the yumminess of physical like it's a very physical feeling of bliss and love that I can't describe to it's like taking off the tightest thing you've ever worn and just feeling expanded. And so coming back then to the super pain of the body was very hard, but I knew in that moment I had to make a change, and then, really the next five years of my life, I set out to integrate the experience of dying, get myself off all the drugs, and work my way. It was my break apart moment where my vase shattered into a million pieces, and then the next five years I spent gluing the pieces back together. If you feel like your life's not been going well for you, if you feel like you can never catch a break, if you feel like you're mostly checked out and not living in what I call the magic and miracle zone, where most of your life feels like, wow, this is amazing. If you're not there, likely you're in victim mode, and the only way to get yourself out of victim mode is to take responsibility for everything, and when you do that, you also get to take responsibility for healing your life. And then everything can change. But when I'm still blaming my doctors for getting me as sick as I did, when I'm still putting the blame, anytime you're putting blame outside of you, you just are never going to transform this situation. You're going to still be in that situation, and you're going to keep attracting more situations to prove you right. The Universe proves your beliefs right, whether you like it or not, like whatever you're currently believing, it's giving you again and again and again. So you can hopefully change those beliefs. We come down here to learn some lessons, but that also those lessons inform consciousness above. So it's a two way street. It's not just a one way thing that's happening here. So it's informing consciousness. It's expanding consciousness. My feeling when I was on the other side was that I'm hopeful I can articulate this well, that God consciousness, divine creator. Consciousness, Prime Creator, whatever you want to call it, it wants to be fully present in and through you when you learn to become the divine creator of your life, which is what I teach people, how to become the divine creator of your life, how to use God consciousness in and through you every day, all the time, you can be in the middle of a horrific possibility situation where probably it's high probability that the stuff is gonna go down, and you can use your vibration and your consciousness to actually shift the outcome. So what I think it's less about the human experience here, and more about can God consciousness come through you, and can it hold itself as God consciousness all the time without going unconscious. For me, it's being kind. At the end of the day. If I can show just about everybody, I come across kindness and a little bit of like walking around radiating that feeling of where people just go, Oh, wow. I feel I feel different. That, to me, is living a good life. God is the computer. God is the earth we're sitting on. God is every single particle and cell and amoeba in the universe. God is to expand consciousness.
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