She DIED in a HORRIFIC CRASH — Then a COUNCIL OF LIGHT REVEALED Life’s Purpose with Shawna Ristic

Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what your life was like before you died.

Shawna Ristic 0:08
When I was a kid, I thought my house was haunted and had a lot of doors shutting, seeing different disincarnate spirits, or, you know, hearing the stairs creak and drawers rattling, or lots of different things like that. And then I sat my parents on the couch and told them, you know, us is haunted and I need some help. And they're like, oh, that's just the occupant imagination of a child. And I said, You just wait. You'll see. And at that moment, the door, the doorbell, went off by itself, and the attic fan went off by itself. But of course, then the doorbell has short and it the attichan just wasn't turned off all the way. That made me really realize that I didn't have a lot of support in this and whatever I was experiencing, and I really shut it down and tried to not experience those sort of things anymore, because I thought, you know, either I'm not safe or I'm cuckoo or something, what's going on here? And I'd seen like The Exorcist, and that pretty much freaked me out and did me. And then I was really scared for a bunch of years, and I learned this technique that I want to see this go away. But then, when I was getting into my, you know, high school years, I was I started modeling and was doing that sort of genre of work, and finishing high school, and felt like I had really shut off a part of myself because of that fear. But I was still so afraid, I hadn't really wanted to open it back up. And then, after I graduated high school, I left home pretty quickly, got a job as a bridal consultant at a mall, so I could still be modeling on the side, you know, trying to get a curriculum, but I was in Kansas City, and that's not really a big at that point. Wasn't there a big hug for models, especially models that look a little more exotic, like I do, and so just kind of struggling with that and going to college, but not really sure why, just because that's what you're supposed to do. And then I lost my job, and woman in my class was like, I know how you can make some money and but you got to be willing to do it. And I was like, I'll do it, whatever. And it was a strip bar. So I ended up working in a strip bar as a dancer for about a year. And I thought it was a good idea because I was kind of fed up with, you know, going out in the evenings and dealing with men, man handling and all of that. No offense, at least I'm kind of benefiting from that, and thought it would be a way to make good money, and I could still even go and go sees and modeling and stuff like that. But then, you know, after a while of doing it, kind of got a little jaded, got a little fed up, and it really started changing me. I thought I wanted out, and I was trying to find way out. I moved back home with my parents at that point, and was trying to figure it out. They didn't know what I did. I kind of lied what of lied. Wasn't really proud of it. And then, you know, I remember sitting at coffee one night with it, with my close friend at that time, and I told him, I said, you know, I know I came here for a reason. I'm sure I have, but this place is really hard. It's really hard here, and they want people to eat each other, and I think I want to renege my contract. I just want to go. Just want to be done. And that was kind of just one of those things you say at like, you know, 4am after working in a strip ball all night drinking coffee at 4am you know, in a breakfast shop. So I went on one trip at the end and fall of 93 and that was to Georgia, because Atlanta was an up and coming hub in the modeling industry at that point. So I thought, well, I'll just go. I told the guys only on the up and up. No funny business. I get my own room. It's separate, you know, not. There's no, no funny business involved. And he just said, I'm just bored and lonely, and they just want company. Okay, so I'll just go to some go sees and go check out some agencies. And then when I was there, it was, he called me in his room when I was pretty clear he had other plans. And then, you know, I kind of froze, and he was like, you don't want this. Go back to your room. Gracefully escaped. And I was laying in my bed that night, and I was like, you know, what am I doing here? How far am I really going to take this? Because this is going to be soul damage. If I, you know, go through with this, this is really going to leave a mark. It's going to really influence my relationships and my life from here on out. And I knew that, but I was kind of down this path, and I had another trip planned for Christmas Day and with another client or customer, and that one was a friend of the owner. But you know, like, how safe is that it's true bar owner. So I fell asleep at night, at night in bed, and I was really contemplating all this, and then I wake up in the middle of the night and I sit in bed, I'm like, holy cow, I'm going to be in a car accident, and it's going to be a miracle of ice. And I was like, oh, self fulfilling prophecy. Don't even think that way. That aside, put that aside. Put that aside. You know, we went back to Kansas after that trip, and then Christmas day arrived, and that was the day for that Minnesota trip. So I Christmas day arrived, and I was living with my parents, and we were going to do the normal little Christmas thing, you know, we all come downstairs and we open up gifts and we have food and all that stuff. And we did that. And then my family, my brother and my parents left to go see to extended family, and I was just gonna go upstairs, take a nap, and then get ready to leave. And then I fell asleep, and then I overslept, and then I woke up, and I was like, so I put clothes, and I jumped into my car, and I'm zooming down the road and get up on the highway. And this is back, you know, in the 90s, when we had when cell phones were just starting, and they were those bag phones you plug into the cigarette lighter. And I thought I was cool, because I actually had one, and seat belts weren't. And so I hadn't been wearing one, but something you've been telling me, I whisper, for about two weeks, you need to wear your seat belt. So I put my seat belt on. I was zooming down the highway. It was going about 75 I think the speed limit was 60 at the point that point, I was flying down the highway, going past a car going over bridge, and I was like. Okay, I need to call this guy and tell him I'm on my way. I'm not going to be late, but I'm gonna be really close, so so he won't think I'm not, not gonna make it. He's gonna wait for me. So I bend over. The phone was in the floorboard of my passenger side of my car, so I'm like, Okay, well, I gotta go over this bridge at least, and I gotta pass this car at least until I go over the bridge and I'm just about past the car, so I think, seat belt off, and I bend over to pick it up, and as I come up, became close to hitting the car I was passing, and so I swerved to miss. And what I think happened is that I fish tailed and then I thought I was going to pull over and catch my breath, because that's kind of what I remembered happening when I started coming out of the coma. That's not what happened. I think what happened is that I nose dived into the median, and then I flipped in over, in across the medium, which was about like two lanes of traffic, and then I flipped it over in across the two lanes of traffic, going the other direction. And then they found me about 40 feet from the car face down, turning blue, just blood. At this car behind me was a nurse. She saw the whole thing. And the next car from the other direction was also a nurse. So there were two nurses, and God, immediately there on the scene, they said, basically, all she did was try to hold my airway. When there was so much blood, she just tried to stabilize me. And she gave me this great story. See, I never met them, and then after years later, I kept writing them thank you. Notes. I have meditated a little bit to try to remember the access scene. What I really remembered when I came out happened more, I think probably after the coma part, I remember being in a room, and so I don't know if that was at the hospital. I don't really know where my body was at that time, but in my meditation, I've, you know, like, consciousness is consciousness, those memories have to be there, and they have to be able to do I was somewhere. And so I've tried to sit and meditate. And I have some memories of, kind of coming up out of body and being above and just sort of everything's kind of hazy and white. And, you know, it's Christmas Day, so it's probably white and gray and snowy, I'm not sure, but lots of swirly colors. And then I remember coming back in body and going, This is ridiculous. This thing is so broken, there's nothing. I couldn't do anything. It was like this hollow shell. They ambulanced me to back to my hometown, or my body in my hometown, because if they there was a trauma doctor there who's only there, like twice a month, and she happened to be there that day. Otherwise, they would have ambulance me to Olathe, which I probably wouldn't made it next to 20 minutes. And then they lifeline me by helicopter to Kansas City after I was able, or whatever they did with me there, I don't remember the lifeline me to Kansas City, and then I spent about four weeks in a coma. I broke my chin off. I had metal plates in my face. I broke six ribs, forefront and back puncher, lung, cracked, pelvis, broken ankle, had injuries, big, swollen head. That's kind of what happened to my body. And then what I remember is that, as I said, there's some of those memories that have kind of come back around the accident itself. You know, that's come in meditation later, but I remember is like opening my eyes and being in this really bright white lit room, and there's these six tall being standing next to me, one three on each side. And they're like, these light beings. They're like, I'd seen a light being in my house once when I was a kid, so I kind of knew what that looked like. You know, just sort of, they're very tall and kind of just this glowing. They kind of have a human form, but they just look glowing. They just glow. And they emanate love, like real love, not like the love that we put all the attachments and conditions on in this world, just okayness, like Hello. We are happy to be with you. And they, they lifted me up out of my body, and then I was standing in this room with him, and everything was bright white. I don't know if it was the hospital room. I don't remember seeing anybody else. It just was bright white, and everything was just sort of white, and like a space. And then they, I remember embracing them, and I felt like, wow, this is like family without baggage. You know, you feel this beautiful okayness from them, like reciprocity. It's like they love you, and they they want to give to you, and they give to you that love. But then when you receive it. It fills them up so much that it gives back to them. And that's how you create reciprocity. That's how it really functions in this world. Frankly, they showed me what would happen if or what I came to do. I understood that I had come to kind of like a mission or for something to help represent them, or they were, you know, part of my team, or something like that. I call them the council, and we were kind of a team here, and that I had chosen to come in the body, and they're going to stay. And they showed me what I had done to this point, and I saw, you know, some memories of experiences I'd had in the past, and especially how I made other people feel, especially this good friend I had, he was my best friend at the time, and always wanted to be more than that, and I was too caught up in everything else, not ready for that. And I just saw how the way I had spoken to him, the way things that I had treated him, how I had really been with him, how that had hurt him, and I felt his pain from like his perspective, but also from mine. And it was really profound. And then they also showed me, you know, like, what my leaving that impact would have on the planet. And I say me, but I don't think I'm unique in this. I think this is everybody that we are so much more impactful than we have been led to believe. And they showed me how my brother would be like he would transform all his relationships with women from here on out, maybe he would never even have a relationship. It showed me kind of like looking out of an airplane at. Night at the city lights, and you'd see like, all the lights in the city and how they're all sort of connected. And if one light goes out, can create like a power surge that spreads through the grid and bends others and puts others out and even far away, like so if a life goes out, it creates this surge through the power grid. That's what would happen if I left, and then they showed me what was possible from here on out. And so did I want to go or stay, you know, I didn't want to come back. I was like, This is great. I said. I reneged my contact here. I just really love it here. And I saw like, you know, so a lot of it was about me trying to make come to terms with that. And I remember looking down at my hospital bed from like, the corner of the room, so, like, the door was here, and then I'm looking up from the doorway, top of the door, and in the beds over here. And I remember seeing my mom holding my hand and just kind of sitting there and thinking I could feel what she was feeling. And I remember thinking, wow, I can't do this to her. I can't do this to my family. I can't do this to these people. You know, I found out that I had received. My mom saved all the cards and everything that I'd received while I was in there, and there were hundreds of them, and there were like, 5060, prayer grams, from churches, from people I don't even know, you know. And I just so humbling. I'm like, wow, that that many people knew and were pulling from me, putting the energy out there to bring me back. And then the last thing I remember is being in a circle of these beings, and they're probably like 12 of them. And I didn't feel that was the first memory I had in coming back. And that's what I really was poignant with me. And I remember thinking that I didn't really have a choice, or that they were kind of debating whether I was going to go or stay, or do we do, like, do we switch out and someone else go in? You know, kind of that walk in thing, which I don't think happened. And then I started waking up from a coma. Is is hard. It takes a lot of effort to get into body and to stay there. And then they transferred me to a neurological Hospital in Gardner, Kansas, and that's where I started really waking up. And you know, the miracles of the healing was that they said it would take four to six, four to six months to rehab from the neurological hospital. I did it four weeks. They said I would never live on my own again. I would always need mental assistance. I'd be mentally handicapped. I'd be a miracle if I could, you know, sustain my own life. And none of that's true. So, you know, it was a miracle, but coming back in a body was pretty challenging, fulfilled life. I think that's probably different for each person, but for me, being of service, really, it's so gratifying to watch people transform and change. I had some sessions yesterday that were just, you know, someone who hasn't slept for days called me and said I slept last night, you know, and because we got in touch with her inner child and listened instead of trying to control it, you know. And I don't know, just be of service and to be able to help transform this world in even small ways. It's just sometimes I look back and I think maybe it all had to happen anyway, divine or good friend. But in that light, I think it's important to recognize that we are co creators with the divine, and even if you get kicked off track, even if you're co creators, you choose to take the other path. They're pretty persistent, like we said in the beginning, it's a whisper, and then it's a yelling, and then, you know, a concept. So this council has kind of taught me this concept of what they call the tribe, talking about guides and our ancestors and all of these beings that are here, helping and assisting us. And assisting us in different times in our lives. But there's also these beings. I like to explain it, for lack of better, for concept, we each came from our own planet, and in on that planet, everybody there is of a similar vibration that you are and a similar love frequency and that when you're going to come and your consciousness is going to travel through space time to come to planet earth. There are a certain amount of beings that are close to your family there agree to accompany you on this journey, or maybe stay after your body there and accompany your consciousness here. And that they're so close to you that you often don't even feel them as separate, but they're the ones who do that little serendipity thing, like, you know, you look at the clock and it's always says, 111, you know, or you know you need something, and it happens to appear, or, you know, you find fortune cookie fortunes everywhere, you know, or whatever. And that it's important to recognize that, you know, that's what the council is. For me, it's that tribe that is here guiding each of us. You know, we all have that. And I think that so many of us are so busy looking out there for help, we forget to drop in here. Because when you drop in here, then you can feel them, the great all that is, it's that ever present pregnant possibility, pregnant potentiality. It's this vibration of love that holds everything, and that is at the one same time, the void and all the emptiness, where everything is nothing, and at the same time, pregnant potentiality, where everything can spring forth from it all comes forward in love, and it's always there for working in our benefit, working in our favor, even If we can't see it. Find your way home.