She MET GOD After DEATH — And He Asked ONE SHOCKING QUESTION with Mary Jo Rapini

Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what your life was like before you died.

Mary Jo Rapini 0:08
I'm a big exerciser, and I was training at that time. We were going to move back to Houston, so I wanted to get in good shape. I was a runner, and so I was over at Gold's Gym that morning, and I was working out. I just done a spin class, and my goal was to lift my weight with my upper body, since I could bench press two times my mate weight with my lower body. So I was working on one of the machines, and it was a shoulder machine, where you press, and I pressed close to my body weight was like 98 pounds, and when I was done with that, I saw stars, and I thought man, and plus, I had uncontrolled blood pressure, and that should be said like I I was I had gone to the doctor for blood pressure medication, but because of my athleticness and I was thin, they told me that I was probably anxious, and they were reluctant to give me blood pressure medicine, which is something everybody watch should pay attention to, because I definitely had it, and I was pushing this machine, and all of a sudden I felt like a knife in the back of my neck, and for a While, all I could see were like pin holes out of the side of my head, and it sounded like I was underwater, like I couldn't I was disoriented, so I thought maybe I was having a vasovagal, because I've always had the kind of blood pressure that it can go up and then it can drop really fast, and that will cause a vaso vague. When this happened, I thought I had had some kind of a central nervous system injury, like I thought maybe I broke my neck, although, logically, I didn't know how that would happen. So I got up from the machine, and I thought maybe I just need water. And when I got up, I was really off balance, like I couldn't see and I really couldn't hear. So I kind of stumbled to the Bubbler, and when I pushed down on the lever, my whole right side just started like seizing. It was just involuntary, jumping up and down. I had no no control over it, and that really scared me. So at that point, I just laid down, and this one guy came back, who was always lifting weights, and he said, Hey, muscle woman, what's the matter? And I said, Go, Go, call an ambulance. I think I broke my neck. And then from there, they called an ambulance, and the ambulance came, and I had a feeling like I could smell blood. And I kept saying, Am I bleeding? And they said, Well, you're not bleeding on the outside, but we think you have an we think you have a bleed in your brain. And they were, you know, doing all these different tests, they put me in the ambulance. And an aneurysm is just so painful, especially when it bursts, because there's a blood brain barrier. Even if you get a drop of blood, when they do a spinal aspiration, they make you lay in bed for 24 hours, because even one drop is so toxic to the central nervous system, to the brain, that it can, it can cause irreparable damage. And this was my whole head was full of blood, and so basically, it hurts so bad that all I could think to do was just to submit. And I just told, God, I can't handle this. I've had a good life, and your will be done. I really thought I was going to die. I wanted to die. I couldn't think of any other way to skate what I was feeling. I got this incredible calming over me, like it really wasn't human, because I'm a very anxious person, and I just let go. I just let go into him, and they took me to the hospital, and they called my husband. He was getting his hair cut, and he was already living in Houston, but he was home that weekend because it was Easter, and so they located him, and they all knew him because he had been there on staff for nine years, and he came back after seeing the CAT scan, and he just said, Mary, he looked white as a sheet, and he just said, Mary, your head is just full of blood. And this is really scary. We're not sure what we're going to do, but we think we might move you over to the other hospital, because they have to get an angiogram. And he was concerned, because I just didn't care. I was so relaxed, I really didn't care. They sent me across to another hospital across the street and in an ambulance, and then I got checked in there, and they tried to do an angiogram, but all the neurologists were out of town that weekend for a meeting in Santa Fe and so they had a pediatric neurologist do it. But. There was so much blood when they went in, they couldn't locate anything. So they recommended that they stabilize me, and until some of the blood had dissipated, they put a drain in my brain to help with the swelling. And then I just remember that that I was there in their surgical ICU, and my husband was with me, and different people were coming up, family members, my daughters, my one of my daughters came. The other one was terrified, and she did not want to see me like that. Until Easter Sunday, everything was pretty much normal, the neurosurgeon who had retired, who was in town from Texas, tech, talked to my husband, and they suggested sending me to Dallas on a Lear jet that they pressurized them and they could send me. The only problem was Ron could not go with me, and there was a high percentage chance that I could die. In route, I seemed to be doing better, like I had more visitors and people were coming by, and my color was still bad. And on Tuesday, it looked really green, like I was starting to get kind of a greenish yellow. And that night, I had some friends come, and they one of my friends told my husband who this friend was a radiologist, and she said, you know, she doesn't look good. Her color looks really scary to me. Well, that night, when I went to bed, I felt pretty happy, like I felt grateful. I never thought about going home. I just was in a whole nother space, and they weren't giving me any mind altering drugs, like we pulled everything from the chart. It was more what was going on, like I was talking with God. And then early Wednesday morning, the nurse came in. They do those checks, and all of a sudden they all started turning on lights. The nurse told me, honey, we called your husband. You are going to move to ICU. You are not doing well. And I said, Okay, I didn't feel real well either. I It's a painful you just feel sick. So I was in there and Ron all of a sudden, and I'm telling you, kind of fading in and out, how it is like you notice things, and then that stops, and then, and then you get a new glimpse. Ron was by my side, and he said, Mary, they're going to have to do surgery, so that means they've got to open up your brain. And they've told me that you may never walk again. You may never run. Your personality might be completely different, and as he was talking to me, all of a sudden, I saw this like light, and it was up on the right hand corner, not behind my head, in front, like the corner I would look at lying in a bed. And because I had worked with all this death and dying with hospice, and I I've seen patients die, and I thought, what is that? Because it is not a normal light. It is it is not human. And then I thought, is that the light they're taught, they talk about, like my consciousness was fully functioning, but I'm talking to myself that I'm thinking, it's not impressive, like, I can't go into that. And all of a sudden the light, like I was in it. I don't know how it happened, and I was kind of, I was like, floating up. I was just going up to to the light. And then I remember my eyes could see behind me too. And I remember seeing my body. I remember seeing Ron. Ron was like crying, and just looked miserable. I remember seeing these people rushing around the bed. I remember their shoes. One of the doctors had terrible scuffed up shoes, and all these things like you could not have seen had you not had an aerial view, you just couldn't have and then all of a sudden, I'm in the tunnel, and God is holding me, or what I believe is God, I didn't see him, but you feel him, and he comes, his voice comes through all of you like it's it sounds corny. It's weird. It's not human, and that's what makes it so hard. The colors are not human. I've never seen any of those colors through my eyes in this body on Earth. And it told me. The first thing he said is he called me by my name, and he said, You can't stay and I said, What? And I started telling him all my social accolades. I give free care to cancer patients. I've been a good wife, I've been a good mom. I told him every good thing I could think of that I've done in my life. And he said, let me ask you one question, have you ever loved any. One the way you've been loved here. And I said, No, it's impossible. I I'm a human but at the time, it was such an incredible love. We don't even have a word for it. They call it a gappy but I don't even think people know what a gappy love is. It would be like trying to give someone the emotion of rejection or empathy with a credit card, it's it would be plastic, whereas, if somebody felt that at such a high level, this world is plastic, I came back with a very clear idea. Our source is not plastic, but this world is and that's kind of what has stuck with me. When I said that, he said, You can do better. And then I felt like he hugged me or held me tighter. And then I woke up in that bed, and Ron was crying, and he said, Mary, I'm terrified. Well, he was shaking me first, because I guess it was like two minutes where they were doing they thought they lost me. And I said, Well, you don't have to be because I just talked to God and I'm not going to die. And he thought I was hallucinating, and till I woke up and told him, and I did not die, I feel like, God put some kind of a microchip in me that I'm better, but he made me a much better version of myself. The ultimate purpose of life is to serve others. Losing Someone is so difficult, and you remember little quirks they do and things they said to you. You remember the way they smell, the way they felt. But ultimately, when your loved one is gone, part of us should celebrate, because they're free. They're free in a way we cannot understand being in this body on Earth. And not only are they free, but they're going to their home, where they started with just surrounded by love and so yes, it's sad, because they're not with you, but for them, if we just think about them, they truly are in a much better place.