One Month Beyond the Veil: A Young Girl’s Near-Death Revelation with Dr. Spirit Sunshine

Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what your life was like before you died.

Dr. Spirit Sunshine Frost 0:08
I was a young girl that had never really partied, and I went to the bathroom, and I did what I thought was going to be a simple little setup, little things for each of us, and I decided I was going to take a bath, and within just a few seconds, my nose exploded. I was bleeding from both nostrils. My eyes this my eyes started the blood vessels in my eyes started to break. I collapsed into the bathtub. I don't remember. I just saw my heart pounding. I wanted to scream for somebody, but I was totally numb. My face was numb, my throat was numb, and immediately I just felt myself sinking, and I was already in the bath. At this point, it took me about three seconds from one to the other, and I began to sink through the actual which was the most unusual feeling, because I was totally in fear, panicking. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears. I could hear myself trying to breathe, but then in one moment, it was just like drowning inside myself. And then I was thinking through the water, through the cast iron bathtub. I could feel the metal, I could taste the metal somehow, even without my body. And I was going through the floor of the first the first story hotel room, moving through it downward, not upward, as most people experience. I was thinking downward, and I could feel the earth. I could smell it. I could feel this dark, cool feeling, but yet I knew I was very separate from my body, and I instantly began to it feels like I was there for a day, and I remember just saying, This is what I deserved, because I had been the victim of sexual abuse. I was had no parents that really loved me. My mother abandoned me in a bathtub when I was three, in a hotel room. I really didn't have self love, so I, in that moment, believed, and my mindset, believed I deserved that, and so in that few moments, I was very separate from everything that felt like God, and I had to go inward to find that place. And I remember I went to awanas When I was little girl, and it was like a little Wednesday night program at church, and there was this little song about Jesus. And, you know, do you love me? I love you. And I started to kind of sing inside myself, you know, if you're real, do you remember me kind of singing that song, and it's still emotional, even now, you know, just saying, Do you remember me? And as I began to think it, my mind was like a balloon carrying me upward, back through the sinking I was just almost shooting up, as if my own mindset was determining where I was going to go. It is the most incredible thing. My mindset was taking me either to heaven or to hell, my own belief, and I began to rise up.

And then I went through my body, and I saw my body, and I felt such a sadness and such a shame at how badly I had treated my body and how the things I had said about her, and how much I had judged her for her physical looks and how I had put all of these restrictions on food and said these things about myself that weren't true, and I saw her there, 17 years old, vulnerable, undressed in this bathtub, in a strange place with people that didn't care about her, and I thought, I don't want to die this way. What did I do to my body? Why didn't I love her? She's so precious. And I think everybody feels that way when we're out of body, how grateful we are to have had that vehicle. You know, like we don't appreciate our bodies, there's such a gift to us, really, in the physical world, we can't experience the joys of food or or so many other things that we can't enjoy in the Spirit. So I looked at my body, and I kind of wanted to stop there for a moment, but I kept going upward, and it was like two stories up. I was with a guide, and the guide, I could not see the face of but I could see a very bright image around the guide. And I started to cry. And my guide said to me, without talking, just through the mind, you don't need to cry. It's okay. And I said, I deserve to be in hell. And I was just so upset, like, why am I here? I don't deserve to be here. I should go to hell. I'm not a good kid. I'm not a good person. I haven't been a good person. I've I never did anything for anyone else. You know. I really believe these this narrative, this projection, internalized, of myself and my being. And this guy just said, let me show you something. And they showed me what I know now know to be timelines. And they said, sunshine, if you continue in this timeline, this is what will happen. And they showed me the man. He was probably 23 and I was 17, and the other guy was like 26 and my girlfriend was 17 2 17 year old girls in a hotel room with a 25 and 26 year old man, men being given drugs, and they showed me that even after they found my body, they didn't call 911, they left the hotel and called the hotel to find me later, and I had already passed for many hours, there was totally no ability to resuscitate. And my grandmother, who dearly loved me, was the one that. Got the phone call that I had passed, and I was her only grandchild, and it was devastating for my family. And they showed me all the people which I couldn't really see at that time, but they gave me this feeling I couldn't remember because they wouldn't let me remember who I was going to meet in this life and the things I was supposed to do. But they showed me the timeline of dying in that moment, and what that would have meant for me. And then he showed me another timeline. Was a him, and he said to me, without talking, of course, just telepathically. He showed me, it was as if I had choices, and every choice I made opened up another timeline, which I didn't know it then it just felt like a wishbone. Is what I called it when I was 17. Oh, I have a wishbone. It's a decision to make one road or the other. And they showed me that he told me that my my life had been chosen for me with my own oversoul, with my help, and that my life was to be a life of transmutation, and that that is why it was so difficult, and that I had taken on a five, five transmutating life path, which is like five lifetimes worth of suffering that I had chose that because I was a guide soul in this life, and I didn't know any of that meant at the time, but he said, Do you want to go back? And I still was very insistent that I did not want to go back if I didn't have something to give to the world, because I felt very purposeless, and then my life was meaningless. Even though I had felt compassion for my body, I had felt compassion for my grandmother, I just felt as if I served no purpose, and I really didn't want to go back here again without a purpose, just like a leaf on the breeze floating through life, feeling unanchored, ungrounded, feeling alone and separate from God and from everything, because I tried so much to get close, but I never felt connected. So I was told that not to worry. And they called me Christina, which is my middle name. He did not call me sunshine on the side, he said, Christina, I promise you, you will have a gift to give the world if you trust me and you choose to go back and behind him, there was this beautiful place. It was so beautiful. It was like a beautiful park, if you can imagine, you know, Central Park, and there were benches everywhere, and there were children just and I knew all the children that had passed in childbirth or in young children, these were not older. These were all very young children that had either just came off of planet, or were going to transpire onto planet. And they were with the Grands and great grands, and they were in this park. And there were animals and things there. It was just beautiful. Pets that had crossed over were there. I could see all of this from where I was at. I could see reception areas to my right. There was like a some temples. It looked like in the back with crystal ceilings. It was quite beautiful. But I could only see the first part. I could see very clearly, but the rest of it, it's as if it was in a different frequency than me. And I really I couldn't make it out from where I was at. As we were talking, I had moved further into what you call heaven, I guess, which is just seems like it's only maybe two realms above us, but there's multiple levels of everything. So like three have like when they teach three heavens, I agree with that, maybe 12 or 13 realms in each heaven, and then 12 in each of those, maybe 144 levels. Who knows? But I knew that there was multiple levels to this that I couldn't access or see, just knowledge intuitively, not knowing this, and I decided to come back. I made the decision because I felt really confident in that promise that there was something that I was here to give the world, but there was something there was some purpose for me, and I wasn't just a name, a faceless child, a person that didn't matter. I felt they promised me, and the promise felt so real that there was something important I was going to do in the world that would make a difference, that if I chose this timeline, I would be cheating, like I said, they I don't remember, but I know they did show me many things, but when I came back, I couldn't remember the details of like me meeting you right now, or, you know, me doing the things, saving, the lives I saved as an EMT or as a surge, like, like those things I never really got to see, but they gave me enough confidence that my life had A huge meaning for me to choose to come back. It wasn't a life review. It wasn't a life review in the fact of, this is your life. This is what you did. I knew already that I felt so condemned because of my religious background. I didn't need the review. I already believed I deserved to go to hell. I believed I was totally impure, totally unsaved, unworthy. I was so convinced of my unworthiness and that I was that I didn't have a value to God. How could he love me? So I already had so much self condemnation that they didn't even try to condemn me. Actually, they were trying to raise me up into my worth and value and say no, and they showed me two timelines which I didn't really look back on my life, which is strange, I never looked back on my life. And the first nde, no, the light, yes, I did get rose up in the light. My guide was there because I wouldn't. I didn't go through any whoosh. I went from the bottom up through. Saw my body. Then there was an immediate. A guide with me, and then the guide and I went together to this reception area. And in that reception area, as I said, he showed me two timelines, one where I would pass then, and it would cause a great deal of suffering, and I would have negated this life path, and essentially, I would have had to do it over. Is what I think I was being told. That. I don't remember those words, but I remember the feeling of, I don't want to do this again. I don't want to do all of this again, realizing that at 17 I'd already transmuted sexual abuse, abandonment, being an orphan, I had already transmuted so much I didn't want to relive those things to gain the value. So I was like, no, no, no, no. Okay, let's let's try. But if you're gonna send me back, give me something great, give me something special, that'll just be worthy. So I have a purpose, and that's what I do. Remember about that. So to say that I was in that pit of despair for weeks is fair, and to say that I was in heaven for at least what felt like maybe a month is fair, that this whole information was downloaded. I mean, all of the I remember heaven having sounds, everything made a beautiful noise. And when I read, there's some books I've read my time in heaven. He talks about the grass having a sound, and the trees, I could hear singing that lasted. That singing stayed with me for two years after this experience, I could hear if I focused, almost like hard to explain a beautiful choir, a symphony, but it's so low and no one else could hear it. I'm like, Could you hear that? No, can you hear that? No one else could hear it but me. I had tuned into that frequency. When they say, there's just singing and constant praising and joy, it's true. And everything there makes such a beautiful sound, the grass, the leaves, there's a frequency of vibrational sound like the crystal bowls. That's why we love them, because they are absolutely the frequencies of heaven. Everything in nature makes this beautiful sound, and it all sounds perfect. I woke up, it was a puddle of blood. I had been bleeding out of my nose, and I had just collapsed into the tub and the water, I'm very tall, actually, that's what saved my life. I couldn't lie down completely under the water. When I had I kind of had had my head fell against the side of the tub, and I had one leg like I was like this, with my legs out of the tub, and I could not skip down any further. But I woke up and it had been, I would say probably seven or eight minutes. I know a lot of people would say that's not possible, but my heart did stop. My heart did restart. There was no damage. I can't explain it. I know it was a bit of time the blood here had already begun. It already dried. Here. It was just a puddle in the water. Everything was, it was quite horrific, really, to wake up with that and to be like and then I went to tell my girlfriend what happened, and she goes, Man, you must have been really high, you know. I just I gotta go. And they're like, No, you need to stay. I said, No, I've got to go. And I remember just wet hair, wet clothes, didn't even use a towel, threw my clothes on. I ran out the door, went back home, and just really tried to piece together what had happened. And I did talk to some people in the church, and they again, same exact limited mindset. This is witchcraft. You were using drugs Satan gave you a delusion, you know, something to that effect. And could not accept that I'd had this experience so profoundly beautiful, and that I had seen, not necessarily God, but I saw the place of the face of and my personal experience with source. And I guess at that time, it was my personal so it became really a spiritual solo quest for a long time. And I didn't really share this experience, but it changed me a lot. Living a fulfilled life is first having self love, like I said that first one was Major. If you don't, if you can't find a way to love yourself, then the love other people give you will never be enough. If you seek all validation in others, they can take that away. So loving yourself, no matter what it is you love about yourself. Number two, surround it's all love, calling for love. So finding love within the world, whether it's with a group of friends, whether it's with your pet, whether it's just helping others, it could be orphans. You know, I have 30 orphans I take care of. I love them. And there's always this exchange frequency of just love. So, love yourself, love others, and find a purpose in life, because without purpose, it's very easy to get discouraged and bogged down and stuck in ourselves to serve God and to serve each other, just to serve to just be of service. So learn to love one single living thing, and if you've done that, you already have a great purpose.