Man DIES in Horrific Crash & Loses FAMILY; Told to Go BACK in Heart-Breaking NDE with Jeffery Olsen

Alex Ferrari 0:00
Tell me what happened to you. When you left this realm.

Jeffery Olsen 0:03
I was on an automobile accident, single car rollover crushed both of my legs. My left leg was amputated above the knee. It broke my back in a couple of places, ironically didn't damage the spinal column. I still have full movement. My right arm was nearly torn off. my ribcage was damaged, my lungs were collapsed and the seatbelt had cut through me and ruptured all my insides. The most devastating part of the of the accident is my wife and youngest son were killed instantly in the accident. It was horrific. I mean, I blacked out during the rollover. But when the car came to a stop, I was completely conscious. The first thing I heard was my seven year old my oldest son crying hysterically in the backseat. And as a father, I thought, well, I got it, I've got to get to my boy, I've got to get to him. But that's when I realized I couldn't move. I was pinned either to the floorboard or the seat I couldn't tell. I was struggling to maintain consciousness. I was struggling to breathe. I was in intense pain, but I was unaware of my injuries. I really I mean, the adrenaline I didn't realize that I just knew my son was crying and I wanted to get to my son. But that's when the brutal reality hit that no one else was crying. I became aware at the scene of the accident that both my youngest son and my, my wife were killed instantly. And that was a very helpless feeling. I mean, there I was losing consciousness. I couldn't believe half the family was gone. And Alex, I was driving the car. I mean, the guilt, the regret that oh, you know, gosh, can I get those three seconds back? What happened? What happened? And it was in that that darkness and I don't share that to be morbid or graphic but it was a hellacious, you know, place to be. But that's when the Near Death Experience begin to unfold. And I say that because it was quite a process. But in that darkness, I felt this light come and I say that it sounds ethereal. But it was like tangible light. It felt as if light came and surrounded me. And suddenly I could breathe. And the pain was gone. And I literally I was thinking, how can I be okay, what, what just happened here. And then the interesting part of it is in that light, which felt like a bubble of light, it felt like I was suspended in this bubble of light. And suddenly there was no pain I could breathe. And then my wife camera who I knew was deceased at the scene. Suddenly, she was there in the light with me. And we began to converse it and and she was emphatic. She kept saying, Jeff, you you can't come you can't come you've got to go back. You got to go back. You've got to go back. And she was she was upset and emphatic. And we literally had a conversation and made a choice where we discussed if I stayed with her our oldest son who survived the accident, he was banged up a little bit. But physically, he basically walked away from it emotionally. He thought the whole family was gone. But we discussed the fact that if I stayed with her, he'd be orphaned. And we made a deal that I'd go back, and I'd raise our boy. And we made a decision to that I was going to come back, you know, I mean, I didn't have to figure out how to come back. We have no idea how powerful our thoughts are, you know, I mean, the intention, okay, I'm going back. I said the most profound goodbye, I'll probably ever say. And then I found myself moving about a hospital moving freely about a hospital. Now when I say that I was I was out of the body. And I have no concept of time in this bubble of light, if you will. I later found out people arrived at the scene or my seven year old was you know, he was banged up, you bruised his ribs and cracked his wrist with my extensive injuries. I had to be extricated from the car and I was I was life flighted or airlifted to the, you know, the nearest level one trauma center. I knew nothing about that. I knew we crashed the car. I knew I'd said this profound goodbye. And then here I was moving about the hospital and encountering the doctors and the nurses and the patients and the families of the patients. I seem to have a I was aware of everything. And I was aware specifically of every individual I encountered. I mean everyone I saw I it's like I knew that I mean that we were connected even though they weren't strangers in this realm. I knew them I knew their love, their hate their motivations, their challenges, their choices, I knew them and it was all wrapped in this this absolute unconditional love. I was seeing everyone differently, you know, Quick Exam I passed by a nurse and she seems completely unaware of me obviously. But in an instant, I knew everything like and I felt it as if it was me. I call it a oneness. There was a connection I felt in an instant, as if it was my own her abuse as a child, her physical, emotional and sexual abuse. Like I felt it in a very real way. And in that same instant, it's like wow, look at the magnificence of who she is. She's here in a hospital. serving and healing. And I mean, it was, you know, I knew all this stuff, but there was no judgment. There was no comparison there was just this absolute connected oneness that was infused with love that had no conditions and not a romantic love, but a true, true unconditional love. And then I finally came upon a body I didn't feel anything from which I thought was odd. And that's when I stepped closer to look and realized, oh, my gosh, that's me. But it wasn't me. I was having this profound, connected experience, but there was my body. And it was a mess. I mean, I realized, well, there is my body. And I felt as if I was just freely moving about there was a profound sadness. As I looked at it, you know, I had always taken my body for granted. And as I mean, and that was a realization to him, like, Wow, what a miracle our bodies are, what a miraculous machine, I don't have to remind my heart to beat or, or tell my lungs to breathe or teach my eyes how to see. I mean, I was looking at this broken mash, and realizing I've got to get back in there. I made a deal. I gotta get back in there. And the brokenness of it, there was a profound sadness and a profound realization of wow, what a miracle our bodies are, and yet minds busted. And I gotta get in there. Our thoughts, our intentions, I didn't have to figure out well, how do I get back in as soon as I made that choice, I'm going back in, you know, boom, I was back in the body, but back to the heaviness and the guilt and the regret and the pain and the trauma. And I mean, I was ventilated. There was a big tube, you know, down my throat, which was doing the breathing lungs, my legs were immobile. My right arm was immobile. They eventually tied down my left arm because I kept grabbing it all the medical equipment. But there I wasn't the body back to all the pain and grief and trauma that I seemed to be separate from when I was out of the body. I mean, I was aware of what had happened. But it was a different experience than being in the flesh. And, you know, it's probably worth pointing out the most profound experiences were at the scene of the accident, you know, before all the narcotics and morphine and everything that had been administered. And then at the end of my hospital stay, I had gotten out of ICU, I'd gone through surgical recovery. I was I was actually in the rehabilitation. And it was only a couple of weeks before I was to come home, I went to sleep. It's funny, I was finally able to roll on my slight side, they'd finally stabilized my abdominal injuries I laid on my back so long, I'd rubbed all the hair off the back of my head, I got two brothers, they rallied around me and my youngest brother, you know, took in my surviving sons, my older brother, who was a trained EMT, and he would come in and even look after me in the hospital. I mean, there was a point where the nurses were throwing up because of the abdominal wounds, and they had to pack him every day and then strip out the gauze. And he was there. And he said, Look, I'll do it. I'll take care of my little brother, you guys go throw up and we'll, we'll do this thing, you know, but it was, it was at the end of this hospital stay. And I finally they had stabilized all that I was laying on my side thinking, wow, I don't know that I've slept. I mean, I've certainly been, you know, I'd slept but I realized I was in a peaceful state. I thought I'm peacefully sleeping. And I felt that light come again, that the same light that I had felt at the accident scene and I was not on any narcotics at this point. I was simply taking some Tylenol for pain, but that light surrounded me I had that same lift, you know that I had felt that the accident It felt as if I was rising above the hospital bed. But at this point, the the light dispersed and like a fog off of a lake it it it went away and I was in, I was in the most incredible, beautiful, you know, people say heaven, or the spirit world or the other side. I mean, the only word that comes close to what I was experiencing, is I was home, I was home it was so it was so welcoming. It felt so familiar. And I can't emphasize it was such a physical experience. I mean, here I am out of the body and spirit or the soul, but it felt so physical, I could literally feel the energy of the ground underneath my feet. And I had both feet. I mean, I they had amputated and everything that had gone on in this realm. But in that realm, I was whole and I began to run and I could feel the intelligence in my calves and my thighs. It was such a physical experience. I don't know how to explain that. But I was running gleefully thinking I'm home. It felt so welcoming. I had the knowing I you know, I knew I'm not here to stay. And at that same time, there was this corridor off to the left. And I knew intuitively I'm to go that way and I begin working my way down this corridor, and at the end of the quarter was a crib, my little son that we lost in the accident. He was just a toddler. He was still sleeping in a crib at the time of the accident was 14 months old and I had been tormented what what had happened to him is his car seat had broken apart. And he had been ejected from the car. And I was aware of that

At the scene, and I just been tormented with the grief and also this cribs I raised to the crib, and I look in the crib and there's my little boy beautiful, perfect are sleeping. I don't know if you've ever picked up a sleeping child, you know, the weight and the heat of him. It's my little. I picked up my child and I'm feeling Yeah. And the heat of him and I can feel his breath on my neck and I leaned over, I leaned over and I smelled his hair, you know, I'm like, it's it's him. It I mean, I'm holding my little boy. And I began to weep just thinking, How can this be? And yet it was, I mean, there I was holding him. And as I wept, holding him and kissing him, and I could feel this intense presence coming up behind me this overwhelming, powerful presence. And you know, I grew up in a conservative Christian home. And my thought was, well, that's, that's God. And I'm in so much trouble. I mean, the guilt, you know, I'm thinking my little boys here because I crashed the car. You know, his life was cut so short, because somehow I overcorrected or lost control. And And this President is coming closer and closer and closer, and I felt so close, and I didn't dare turn around, and I'm holding my child, and I have the thought, I hope there's some way I can be forgiven. And with that thought, and this almost felt physical to. I just felt these divine arms wrapped around and hold me and my little boy, and it's like, the lid came off, there was just this downpour of love and peace. And the first thing communicated as I had the thought, I hope I can be forgiven. And the communication was so clear, it was beyond words, I was told there's nothing to forgive, everything's in perfect divine order. And I'm holding my child weeping, thinking, well, how can that be? And then I had what I've learned is called the life review, I begin to see my life. You know, I saw my parents divorce and the insecurities that caused in me, I saw how my brothers that showed up for me my whole life, you know, even when I thought my big brother was being mean, I realized, wow, he loved me that much, you know, and I saw things and I was I was saying, Well, that was a mistake. I didn't mean to do that. And this beautiful being that held me said, there are no mistakes. What did you learn from it? What did you learn? That was? That was always repeated. Yeah, but what did you learn? What did you learn? And I even saw things and I thought, well, that was wrong. And I knew it was wrong, and I did it anyway. And the divine, God, whatever you want to call this being that held me said, that's your judgement of it, not ours. We love you. You're as beloved as the child you hold. And it was, it was a strange multiplicity. Because here I was holding my son who was perfect and beloved and divine to me, and I was being held by the Divine and, and it was magnified, in a way where it's like, Yeah, we love you just like that child, you hold and yeah, you thought you were messing up your life, but you were learning to walk and everything was, you know, aligned in such a way. And and I kept thinking because of my beliefs. I thought, Yeah, but I'm failing the test. I believed that life was a test this divine love communicated your life's not a test. It's a gift. It's a gift. And to your question of Why did you go through the gifts I mean, I learned such profound forgiveness a there I was in the arms of the Divine thinking, how can I possibly be forgiven and realize the one to forgive was me I had to forgive myself, you know, I mean, I can forgive pretty easily, but boy, I'm the hardest one to forgive when it comes to weirdness. And there was no, there was a lot of that going on. Again, choice. And I'll wrap this up, but I saw clearly that I could be mad at God, you know, because this accident happened and was allowed and my family passed. And I was told that we'll be okay. We love you. Anyway, I also saw that I could beat myself up for the rest of my life in guilt because I was driving the car. But I was given a third choice, I was told and this was very interesting for me, given my belief system. God said to me, I want you to have your wit and I thought my will I always learned was your will be done. And this beautiful being that held me said My will is your will. That's how much you're loved my will is always that you have free will. And I was told that you can give your son to me, you can exercise will and hand him over and release him and trust, then you won't feel like he was yanked away, you'll exercise your free will and and hand him over and in all that love and all that beauty and all that peace. I kissed my little boy and I handed him over and I woke up or came to myself back in the hospital bed to the amputation and the wheelchair and the colostomy bag and all that was going on. And you know I grieved as miserably as anybody creeps even even with all the experiences, but that one that one probably allowed me to get through it somehow. Otherwise, I might be that guy strung out on some string. corner wondering what happened you know but that one gave me reason to continue I suppose.